OK now, ya can't just drop a bombshell like that on us and then disappear! WHERE ARE YOU??????

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

I'm here! I'm here!! We actually lost some internet almost all day yesterday. Sorry. I'm waiting on the beta/p4 results. You'll be hearing from me again soon.

So impatient!!

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Can't wait for the update. Can ya tell we're all excited for you??!!

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

So... ok.... I need more details about how this came about. I know about your post about how you knew you'd be PG this cy and your quitting your job, but did you use eegwhites or preseed or anything. I'm getting desperate here. Grasping at straws. So your saying just say screw it all and have sex once at some point and that should do it?

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Oh, and when is your birthday? Does this have anything to do with the birthday theory and what has your horoscope said lately? Curious minds wanna know.

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Ok, I checked your profile for DOB and see your close enough for that birthday theory. Forty will be the best year ever! You just didn't wanna have to post with us old broads.

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Where did I come from?" the baby asked its mother. She answered, half-crying, half-laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast: "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were in the dolls of all my childhood games. In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother, and in her mother before her, you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

Well, I've always said that, for me, it was stress that kept me from getting pregnant. I don't handle it well really, even though I crave it because I love to be in crisis mode.

The last two times I got pg, I was meditating and doing yoga like a mad woman and taking my herbs faithfully. This time it was not only that vacation just prior to O, but also quitting my job. The last five weeks were so happy for me. Nothing bothered me. I went back to meditating and yoga and just going slow. And I've been so giddy and free. Corny but true.

Hopefully, I will stay that way. Maybe that's why my other losses happened. I got stressed again and my body shut down what it needed to make it happen. I don't know but we'll see right?

I also went back to the infertility cure and re-took the questionnaire and went back to my herbs (Six Flavor Teapills for the yin[follicular] phase along with Maca, Golden Cabinet for the yang [luteal] phase, and blood palace [for blood stagnation] all cycle long; I had been taking DHEA but stopped for the last IVF cycle and just didn't pick it back up this time). I also took 2400 mcg of Folic Acid because it supposedly helped with implantation for IVF. I figured it couldn't hurt.

How's that?

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