ok im trying sort of to get pg. I want to do this on my own, so my xpartner was kind of aware because i asked him to donate his sperm lol. dont really want him in my life other than that. Im 37 almost 38, and i want a baby. I have debated on going to actually get a donation but this guy was young and cute and has good genes.

he wasnt really ready to give me the donation 100% but.... i think there may be a chance. we had sex, he pulled out came wiped off, and i got right back on him, s i know there was still sperm inside that could have leaked out according to what i read and what my male friends have told me. im so hoping.

now im 11dpo, and before i went to bed early this morning, i noticed some pinkish spotting, that later when i woke up about 11am was gone. it was brief. wiped liked 3 sepearate bathroom trips and noticed pink there. my period is due oct. 31st.

now this cycle was strange. i usually keep track of it which i did, last period was oct 4th. so i shouldve ovulated on the 18th. on the 16th i felt the wonderful stabbing pains that tell me i ovulated. i was with him on the 14th. i have had the flu all week now since last monday. the cold symptoms and the nausea, not throwing up just feeling like the alien is gonna pop out of my stomach anytime. pretty much sore throat very light coughing, little bit runny nose,mostly sore throat out of that, and today one hell of a headache that excederin took away.im so nausous oh my god. oh my boobs are a little bit sore as of yesterday i had some one sided cramping, it was the right side then the left side, the day before had a little bit of very mild menstrual like cramping. thats it. today just sore boobs. and nausea.

so is there a chance this could be implantation spotting??? i know there is a chance i could be pg, just dont know how much of a chance, and im really hoping. im gonna test if i end up late. i have never had spotting like this unless it was ovulation, but that happened on the 16th. so its way too late for that.

whatcha guys think?? thanks@!