Ansley Caroline went to be with Jesus

tarheelbaby2b · #1 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 04:01 PM

I just wanted to let you all know that around 2:30 this afternoon our beautiful baby girl Ansley Caroline went to be with Jesus. Surrounded by our family, Mike and I both held our baby girl as she took her last breath. But our baby girl was a fighter as we all knew from the beginning. Her heart continued to beat for about 40 minutes after the vent was turned off the tubes were out.

Ansley had a pulmonary hemorrhage which is what caused her to bleed out and die. We also found out this morning that she had some chromosome abnormality (final results of the amnio came back) that she is missing a piece of her 10th chromosome which could lead to problems later in life. Due to this finding they did an EKG as well as an ultrasound of her and found she had several holes in her heart and a bad kidney. She would probably have severe developmental delays and possible mental retardation. Not that any of this is easy and we would have played the hand we were dealt but it made it easier to let her go knowing she would not have had a good life with those conditions. I think the hemorrhage was God's way of letting us know he was going to take her back and take care of her. He just wanted us to meet her and love her for a while. Which I will be eternally grateful. I got to hold my one and only baby girl!!!

Mike and I were able to take the remaining tubes out and clean her up. We also go to take her footprints and handprints to make some keepsakes. We then bathed her and redressed her in a Carolina Blue dress, wrapped her back up and put her back in her bed. I got to play mommy and dress my baby girl for the first and last time.

This picture is from last night. We got to hold and "kangaroo care" with Ansley. I put my wedding ring on her hand to show you just how small but what a fighter she was.

Our boys are doing great. They are almost ready to be off the vent and on the CPAP for breathing. We have to be here and be strong for them.

Please continue to pray for our baby boys and family during this time. We need to be strong for our boys and see them get stronger and healthier.

iamblessed · #2 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 04:11 PM

Lindsay

I am sooooo sorry about little Ansley. I was truly praying that she would pull through. But reading the issues she was experiencing and would experience in the future, I truly to do understand the difficult decision you had to make. Please know that I still continue to pray for you and the entire family during this difficult time.

Lots of virtual hugs and prayers coming your way.

blessedbygod · #3 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 06:17 PM

Lindsay, you are a really strong woman. I am very sorry to hear of your loss.
I can only imagine what you must be going you through. You and the rest of your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

broncomom1 · #4 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 06:38 PM

Lindsay, I am sooooo sorry for your loss. You and your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Renae

momma2angels · #5 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 06:52 PM

Lindsay, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that your new sons keep fighting and growing. I will keep you and your family in our thoughts.
I am always here if you need me, I am just an email away!

jess2782 · #6 (**permalink**) 07-04-2007, 07:59 PM

Lindsay,
I hope you remember me from the opk/fm board. I have been checking up on you and your precious babies. I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I know Jesus is taking good care of her for you. Hugs.

Jessica

JBB373 · #7 (**permalink**) 07-05-2007, 07:20 AM

Lindsay -

My heart just ached reading your blog this morning - I can't even imagine the range of emotions you are feeling right now. You are such a strong woman. I hope you know that we are all here for you in anyway we can! My prayers and good thoughts will remain with your family.

Hugs!

brownsuga · #8 (**permalink**) 07-05-2007, 07:24 AM

OMG!! Lindsay, I just came on and saw your post and my

just dropped, I am so sorry for your lost of sweet little Ansley, I will keep you and your family in my

So glad the boys are doing well.