Let's share our TTC stories from the beginning. What was life like at the beginnig of the journey?? How is it now after being however long you have been trying?? The relationship with SO?? Your faith (if willing to share)?? I want it all!

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We were married May 19, 2001 in a little town in KS. We were like every other couple and well you know. We weren't TTC right away as I was only 19 and he was 20. Just weren't quite ready for a little one yet. After a year we started talking about how fun it would be. Then about a year later the hole in my heart that wanted that baby so bad just got bigger and bigger. So we talked some more, bought a book, and saw a dr. In Sept. 03 I went in for laporoscopic surgery (sp) to be checked for endometreosis. I did not have endometreosis but PCOS. The books just tell you about all the cysts doesn't really explain the hormones and other problems associated with PCOS. Then in Sept. 04 we moved to Nebraska (Offutt). Went to the DR on base told him we were TTC and I had PCOS. He immediatly referred me to a OB-GYN. The new DR looked at my films put me on Clomid and sent me on my way. Went back to base with severe pain and saw a different DR. She took blood and kept me on Clomid and then put me on Synthroid. (My thyroid was 12.83 and it should be between .5-5) She ordered a SA for DH got the results back and referred us to a different OB-GYN. The NEW DR saw us once looked at my history and his test results and referred us to a reproductive specialist. We are now waiting on the referral from the military to go see this DR. The other DR said that the best way would be to try IUI.
Our relationship went for excited about the journey to wanting to quit. We have a wedge between us but still love eachother very much! Our faith has slipped little by little. You sent there and think why would God do this to us when we would love a baby and take very good care of it and give it a loving home. But it isn't God who is keeping us from this, I feel he has a different plan for us. I just keep praying and wishing the day will come. The support I get from other ladies in my situation has helped tremedesouly (sp).

THE END (For Now)

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Coming out of lurkdom...

Alright, my story.
We were married June 16th 2001 in our small town of DuBois, PA. I was 19, dh was 19 about to turn 20. I had the wedding of my dreams and couldn't have asked for more. We decided to start ttc right away, we were only married 4 months when we decided to start. For some reason, in the back of my mind, I knew it was gonna take us awhile to concieve...I wish now that I wasn't right..
We tried for over a year, no success. I read every single book I could find and read everything on the net. I found this place, and joined because I found women who were caring and supportive, and who knew what it was like to try and try and have nothing happened. So yeah, I've been on these boards a longg time, I can still remember all the moves the board has made, and I've made the moves with it.
Went for my annual after trying for a year, I was scared to even talk to my doctor about it cause I was only 19, I was waiting for him to be like "You don't need kids, you are still a kid!" But he was really caring and supportive and told me of our options. DH went and had a SA done, I was sent in for bloodwork. All my bloodwork came back fine, DH's SA came back terrible. His motility was next to nothing. Although he had alot of sperm, about 100 million, only half were moving, and the ones that did move, moved extremely slow. So DH was referred to a urologist, and my doc put me on clomid. I always ovulated on my own, he just thought that if I had a stronger O, that somehow DH's slow swimmers would get to the egg. 2 months of clomid and it didn't work, I gave up on it. At the time I quit clomid, DH was diagnosed with varicoceles, one on the right, and one one the left, and they were quite big. For anyone who doesn't know what they are, they are varicose veins in the scrotum that over heat the sperm and can cause all kinds of problems with them. The only way to fix them is with surgery. So DH and I were faced with the decision, for him to have the surgery or not. The decision was big because our insurance wouldn't cover the surgery, it was written down as infertility related, and our insurance had no infertility coverage. We had already racked up bills over 3 grand just for my bloodwork, his SA's and clomid. Surgery would cost around another 8, 000. DH wanted the surgery, I thought he was crazy, most men would be like "Hell no!", and I agreed that he should have it too. He had his surgery August 2003, and his SA 4 months later, in December, showed great improvement although I can't remember the exact numbers right now.
So we thought all our troubles were over, but apparently not. We still haven't gotten pregnant. I lost my insurance coverage, and was denied insurance from the same company because of my infertility. I had applied for much better insurance which did cover infertility, but they denied me DH's insurance is too expensive to add me too, because we are still trying to pay off our debt from everything else we've had done fertility wise.
Our relationship was very strong at the beginning of this journey. Then things fell apart. I thought we were going to end up getting divorced. He couldn't stand to see me so upset every month, and I would just break down and not even be able to leave the house. I thought about getting medicated cause I was so depressed, but decided not to. I was stronger than this, I wasn't going to let it ruin my life or my marriage. So DH and I quit trying. And it is honestly the best decision we ever made. We got so wrapped up in TTC that we forgot all about ourselves. We needed that time for ourselves, to realize how much we already have in our life, regardless of if we can't have children. I have 4 wonderful nephews and 2 beautiful nieces, and they are my world. I have loving parents who would do anything for us (His family is a whole nother story, they dont' like me very much ). And everyone would love us the same even if we didn't have our own children. So we decided, no trying anymore, if it happens, it happens. If it doesn't we will either live without children in our house, or we will adopt. I am thinking we will go the adoption route, when we are probably 28-29, even if we have children of our own, there are so many kids that need loving homes.
Well I wrote a book, but thats it. Not very interesting, huh? haha

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Thank you for sharing it was a very good story. There are so many causes of infertility that nobody has the same story. Thank you!

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ok here is my story,
I meet my husband when i was 9 or 10 at my mums friends house who was his aunty. It was out on this property and there where 2 houses on it and all the parents where in one and the kids where in the other. But the funny thing was that there were not enough beds but there was a bean bag. So Chris (my husband) and i fought over it until we finally just feel asleep on it together as it was really late. I got paid out for years after that. Then my family moved away down the coast and i went to school at a High school called Kingscliff High played basketball and the funniest thing was that we went to school near me but as he was older i couldnt reconise him so we have bumped into each other before. Then my mum decided to move back up the cost and she got in touch with her old friend Chris's aunty. She went out to the farm and i stayed at mum and baby sitted. My mum came home woke me up and said that i have to go out to the farm next time that they have a party because Chris will be out there. I thought great i'll get paid out for a few more years about chris. But something just told me to go out there. So a few months past and i meet him and he was soooooo hot. We got on really well, but i had to wait a few more months for the next party. So i did and we got each others numbers and we would come around and chat to me some afternoons. He finally asked me out on the 5th of november 2001. Cut the rest of it short in 2003 in got endo. The year after that i got a bladder condition that i will never get rid of. Since i got endo i have wanted a child sooo badly but my husband wanted to do the right thing and get marrid first. So we did on the 24th of April this year and we ttc. With success we we pregnant with our first. I was due on the 14th of Feb and we were so happy. Until the 1st of July were much to pain we had a misccarriage and know im in the all clear and we are try again we our second baby.
So thats my long story.

Thank you for sharing. I am sorry about your loss. Hang in there.

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Hey! Well here it goes, but first i'd like to say sorry to those of you who are having such a hard time conceiving. I have been married for 4 months today to my dh Gene! he is the love of my life. I have had 2 miscarriages one before we were married and one just 2.5 months ago. We have been a couple for 3 years now and we would like to start a family. My problem isn't conceiving, but sustaining the pregnancy. My body doesn't make enough progesterone and other hormones to keep my poor little babies heart beats up to keep them alive. Which is why i miscarry at around 8-10 weeks. I hear all the time that i am too young and that i have my life to live, yes i do but we would love to share our lives with a family of our own. My DH says that God will let us have a baby at the right time, he has all the faith in the world, and as for me i just can't wait... So YEA lets all TTC together, and see where the man himself takes us