showed up today and she showed up ANGRY!!!
I'm having horrendous cramps...will have to drink mucho amounts of beer today to numb the pain (physical AND emotional) while I watch football...no easing into this cycle with spotting either--just straight to heavy bleeding...of course I'm terribly sad and disappointed, but I'm going to try to remain optimistic about this new cycle.
Thank you all for helping to keep my spirits up during this whole ordeal!
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Marion
Wife to Mike since 10/16/99
Mommy to Whitley (6/22/03) and 3 angels (Aug '05, Feb '06, and March '07)
I thought I'd have 2 children--or 3--or 4...in any case, I thought I'd have more. But the plans that I had didn't match His plans for me. It's all for the best, as I'm starting to see. My one precious child that I hold in my arms, keeps me smiling and laughing with all of her charms. She's smart, and she's sweet, she's my loving "nuggie bug," and whenever I need her, she's there with a hug. So here I am, raising one perfect little girl. To me and her daddy, she means all of the world. I guess I actually did get my way, because I've got 3 other children I'll meet in Heaven one day. So until then, I'll cherish the one here on earth, and know that I'm being watched over by those to whom I never gave birth.
Marion Im so sorry honey and Totally understand your dissapointment. I agree thought no more wondering. So was the medication what kept AF away? However there IS always next cycle... and you and I will try to make it to the net DI board. Again im SO sorry I was really hoping this was it for you.
Ordeal is right Marion. It must have been awful to have been kept hanging on..and I'm really sorry the outcome was not good
I wonder too if it was the prog then that prevented AF from showing up? Another prog taker was saying the other day that she had to stop taking it for AF to show..
The beers sound like a good idea..I hope in a few days you'll be feeling stronger and I really hope this next cycle is the one for you. You've (and Kim) had more disappoinment this time than any of us should have to handle..
land sakes, marion. what a roller coaster ride you've been on!! a bad roller coaster, i might add. i'm so sorry this cycle has been such a drag. it really bites to have such high hopes and have them dashed against the rocks like that. it just plain hurts.
no way on earth any of us are giving up on you!! your "great happiness" has to be coming soon!! either that, or i'm gonna have to hunt down this Yehuda Amichai character and kick him in the shins!!
thinking of you, hon. sending all the babydust i can muster!!
The wait is over
showed up today and she showed up ANGRY!!!
Marion 
Re: The wait is over
Marion Im so sorry honey and Totally understand your dissapointment. I agree thought no more wondering.
So was the medication what kept AF away? However there IS always next cycle... and you and I will try to make it to the net DI board. Again im SO sorry I was really hoping this was it for you.
