well im sure its over now i am a nursing student and we were doing some urinalysis today well its cd 27 so i caved yes i know i was going to wait but i couldnt resist a free pg test}and opted for a pg test to go along w/ the chem stick test the pg test was bfn and there was trace amounts of blood in my urine which is indicative of 1 of 3 things...
1. uti{i know i dont have one}
2. menses just ended {obviously no im on cd 27}
3. menses imminent{yep shes gonna start}

its indicative there is some bleeding somewhere so.... that combined w/ a neg pg test im sure its done it was all i could do to hold back emotions in class but now that im home im just in tears god it hurts ....i was pg just last mon and now im not and im trying and it didnt happened i feel like weve taken 2 steps back in this process.
im sick of charting and trying to time everything its taking the fun out of my sex life worrying about what position to be in and how long to lay still and worrying im not eating right bla blah blah

and im soooo sick of everyone telling me its just not the right time or be grateful for the one u have

im sorry everyone for wounding like a whiny b*tc^ i just feel like u ladies are prob the only ones who understand all the emotions im feeling

thanks 4 letting me vent i needed it

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M/C 4wks