As a background, this is my third child; I BF my first for 3 wks, second for 4 months and had hoped to BF this one for at least a year. But, things just have not worked out the way I wanted. My son has had a horrible time latching on, so I've exclusively pumped for the last 3 weeks with great success. Mentally, however, this has started to take a toll on me. I'm currently staying with my parents as my husband is in Iraq and fairly soon will be returning home (I live across the country from my parents) and taking care of all 3 children by myself with practically no help and returning to work at the end of November.

Right now I feel like I'm at a crossroads and feel like I'm done with pumping and nursing all together as it is so extremely stressful for me and it is only going to get worse when I get home. My family is supportive of my decision and thinks that it is best for my own sanity - so why then do I feel so guilty about the decision? Did any of you experience this? My other 2 sons received formula and are extremely heathy so I don't have a problem with giving them formula so I really don't understand why I feel guilty and was wondering if I am the only one who has felt this?

Thanks for listening!

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