sorry - VENTING - a little down right now!

kikki · #1 (**permalink**) 08-17-2005, 07:19 PM

hey ladies - I'm sorry but I need to vent! it seems that EVERYONE I KNOW IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXCEPT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Two of my best friends from high school are having babies this year one next month & one in Dec, another friend is due this month, my cousin is due in January & my old friend from college is pregnant & due in April!

So as if that wasn't ENOUGH pregnant people! My BESTEST friend calls me tonight out of the blue! YEPPERS - she pregnant & due in April - THEY ONLY DID IT ONCE!!!! not one month - but ONCE!!!!!!! They have a 15 month old ADORABLE little boy - and i am SOOOO happy for them - but am secretly SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OO jealous that I have been trying for 4 months (actually 6 months) and haven't gotten ANYTHING yet & we do it at the right times and all. I'm like - YOU DID IT ONCE???????? FERTILE MERTILE (sorry Jen & Chrissy - I'm not the fertile mertile)

So needless to say - my evening has kinda stank & I am having a little pity party for myself! I baked tonight & that made me feel a LITTLE better - I'll have some goodies to bring to work tomorrow

(they will love me)

So anyways - I don't mean to sound like a wench - because I am SUPER excited for all my pregnant friends & their coming babies - but I AM SOOOOOO ready & I want it to be us! Ya know what i am saying?? Like I don't understand what it can't "just happen" for us like that! I have regular periods, I have the EWCM & all that jazz - I let it stay inside me afterwards - I JUST DON"T GET IT! My sister gave me TCOYF last time she was here so I started reading up on that - but I don't want to have to temp & all that stuff! IT JUST ISN"T FAIR!!! - but I guess life isnt' fair so what am I complaining about???
Anyways - thanks for letting me vent! SORRY! but thanksf or "listening"

Ready2Go · #2 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 07:25 AM

If you're having a pity party, count me in!

I so know what you're talking about! My cousin is due next month and they weren't trying. A guy at work's wife is expecting in December. My best friend from high school is due in December and her sister is due in March. Another friend of the family is due in November. The straw that will break this camel's back will be if my sister in law gets pregnant soon. They have two beautiful young children and don't know we're trying. It sounds incredibly horrible of me, but if they get pregnant again soon, my eyes will turn from dark brown to green with envy. I feel so guilty for even thinking like that.

I'm so incredibly happy for all of them, but jealous I'm not yet.

Our time will come! (it just might not come as soon as we'd like....but it will happen)

BumbleBee · #3 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 07:47 AM

Count me in too. We are now in our 7th month of trying and nothing. Everyone around me is pregnant, and the ones that aren't have been recently, or I'm sure will be soon. I don't understand how it is that my sister can have 5 kids she can't afford to feed, and yet being financially stable we can't have one. I too have been burying it with sweets, everything from double stuffed oreos and see's candy to jelly bellies. Oh well, such is life. At least we'll appreciate it when we finally get there.

SmittyJr · #4 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 08:11 AM

Oh, Kikki I know it sucks. It sucks even worse when your and DH ARE normal and it's just now working. I wish we had something to point the finger at, sometimes I think it would be easier, ya know.

Poop!

Well, I've got that rash of preggies around me too, some had it easy, some not so easy. I was doing some math the other night (having a down night) and figured out of 10 of my friends SEVEN had problems (m/c, irregualr cycles and so on), 5 of those took a year, two are still working and the remaining three had quick conceptions.

Plus, I feel like my clock is ticking.... (ok, now I'm venting). It's ok, it's good to vent, bake and eat!!

Let's just all think positive thougths for ourselves. Make our bodies happy and be well.

#5 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 08:28 AM

Can I join the party too? It's been 2+ years of TTC and there is no logical reason that we haven't. Everyone around me gets PG by accident. My only sister got pg by accident while using birth control! What is going on? I'm currently in 2WW so keep fingers crossed that this will be the one. I'm holding off as long as possible to test b/c I don't want the BFN! I truly am happy for everyone who does get pg but when is my turn? And if one more person tells me to relax, "don't try", everything happens for a reason...well I won't be held responsible for my actions!

On another note, can I just say that I am very glad I found this site. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels that way. Thanks for your support!!

ajp13 · #6 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 02:03 PM

Amen, I agree with all you said! I have a friend getting ready to off BCP and I feel that she will get pg before me too!
We will get our turn, I hope and pray for that! We just have to patient and realize that it is not in our time. That may be the hardest part of all though.

Keep your head up and if you need to chat or vent, I'm always here.

AF has not arrived for you yet has she? So there is still hope for this month?

kikki · #7 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 02:49 PM

I just got done talking w/ my sister who had 4 years of secondary infertility before she got pg w/ Hope! So I had to vent to her - I just told her that I am such a loser - becuase we have only been trying for 4 months & I am getting all CRAZY about it and they tried for 4 YEARS, 4 YEARS!! i cannot even imagine! She's the bestest to talk to & just make me feel better!

I think our jealousies are normal - especially since we WANT to be preggers so badly - buy like you all said I'm still excited for my friends who are pregnant I just want it to be me!

Amanda - I am due for af tomorrow & have had NO spotting so far like the last couple of month - but i am NOT keeping my fingers crossed because everytime I do I just get let down (plus I think our chances are pretty slim this month ) will keep you all informed!

Thanks for letting me know i"m not the only one!

Hugs to all
waiting for some

's around here! WE NEED SOME!!!!!!!

SmittyJr · #8 (**permalink**) 08-18-2005, 03:09 PM

Ok girls enough feeling bad about ourselves. I order everyone to go out and do some thing wonderful for yourselves!

I splurged on new Aveda shampoo and got a Caramel High from Caribou.

We all have uor purpose, maybe it's to help each other out here on our journey, who knows!!!