she's here :(

kikki · #1 (**permalink**) 06-22-2005, 05:40 PM

hello ladies - just thot I'd give you all an update on me!

I GOT

dangit!!!! I was sooooo hoping this was it - but it seems that God has other plans for us!

Last month I had 2 days of spotting (upon checking - nothing that came out) and then FULL FLEDGED

. This month - Sunday I started getting the spotting again (upon checking- I'm talking pinkish/brown) and had it again on Monday & Tuesday - but still no AF - then THIS MORNING SHE CAME - I was a little discouraged at first - but when I thought about it - it was ok!

But I have her HEAVY & have BAD cramps & it hurts - seems my af is a lot tougher since being off the pill.

We have had ALOT going on around here- my sister & her family were here the week of the 6th and then my parents were here from the 17th -19th - and during this whole thing - dh's bro and wife have been arguing - seperated & are now getting a divorce & my dh's bro is staying w/ us for awhile - so needless to say _ i have been EXTREMLY emotional & stressed.

DH & I decided to go away next weekend over the 4th to have some time for just to two of us - since we have been so busy w/ everyone else! We are just going to SD for the weekend to camp & go to Mount Rushmore & just explore - we will probably go hiking a bit -but mostly just relax & hang out - I'm sure it will be busy there - but we have no schedule so it should be fun!

I keep telling myself that GOD has a plan for our lives & that it will happen in HIS time - but sometimes its so hard because I am READY - so why isn't my body? Ya know?? anywhoo - just had to vent a little!

I am so THANKFUL for my sister & her listening ear -

W/ the divorce going on & me getting af she has been a godsend! I don't know what i would do w/ out her - I mean dh is great & understanding - but there is just something about your SISTER! She seems to understand how I FEEL! and she doesn't mind if I just need to

I just wish there was something I could do to make their marriage work - but I can't - we just have to support dh's bro & help him through this tough time!

- this is just one big babble - CONGRATS to whoever is STILL reading

and thanks to all you girlies who have been so understanding & encouraging

anywhoo - DH & I figured itd be a cool story to tell if we get pg while in SD -
"yeah you were conceived on an air mattress in a tent in SD" hee hee

just makes me laugh thinking about it - GONNA BE HARD TO KEEP QUIET _ i'm sure they have quiet hours

hee hee LOL

WEll I hope everyone else is doing well - I will try to post a few pics from when my sis was here the other weekend - got a few good ones of Charlie & Hopey

love those 2

tata

belle_lucky · #2 (**permalink**) 06-22-2005, 08:06 PM

kikki- wow you seem to have alot on your plate! I'm very sorry to hear about the Showing of af ... i saw so hoing that this was it for you! man right now i wish that was the prob for me .... i'm on cd 40 today and wow would i love to see some progress in this cycle! take care and keep is updated!
shelly

Elle · #3 (**permalink**) 06-23-2005, 02:00 AM

I'm sorry

found you Kikki! If only she'd get the message - she's not welcome anymore!

I hope things will calm down for you guys soon. Sorry to hear about your brother-in-law

. The camping trip sounds like a great idea though. I hope you and Justyn will have a wonderful time. Who knows, maybe third time will be a charm for both of us and we can move over to DIM together

.

Take care!

satyrngrl · #4 (**permalink**) 06-23-2005, 04:44 AM

Hey kikki, I'm sorry too about AF showing. I was really hoping this would be your month, but I just know that it will be soon. This is your 2nd month of actively ttc, right? The way I'm thinking about it is that they say that the average couple gets pregnant in 6-12 months. I've been trying to think like each month we're not pregnant is just one month down towards the goal--like your chances increase each month.

And sheesh--I don't know how you have time to deal with all this, things sound so crazy at your house. Good for you for getting out of dodge and taking care of yourselves.

Nickie

kikki · #5 (**permalink**) 06-23-2005, 03:18 PM

Elle, Shelly & Nickie - thanks for the support - you guys are GREAT!

Nickie - I like your thot - that we're just one step closer! I keep telling myself that everthing happens in HIS time - and i need to have patience (DON"T have that right now - thats 4sure)

I guess I shouldn't be too worked up right now - because its been 2 months _ I know alot of you who have been trying for alot longer - so REALLY I do hope you all get your

's soon

but I WANT MINE TOO!!! hee heee

a patient came into our office yesterday w/ a 12 week old little boy named Dawson - he was Soooooooooo stink'n cute - he had brown spikey hair & big blue eyes! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW - all I could think was - I WANT TO BE PG & I WONDER WHAT OURS WILL LOOK LIKE!

so

to all of us getting our

's

jdwantsababy · #6 (**permalink**) 06-27-2005, 05:05 PM

I'm so sorry Kikki! I guess we'll be moving over to next month together. I'm so sorry for all of your family stuff going on too. I know that stuff can be so stressful. You're so good to be there for them though. Maybe your vacation will be just what you need. I know mine was! I've come back relaxed and with a new perspective.

kikki · #7 (**permalink**) 06-29-2005, 02:51 PM

Jen -I'm glad your trip went well - you'll have to email me & let me know more

I am hoping this little mini-vacation for the 2 of us will do some good - I know we both need a stress -free weekend together - w/ a little (Okay ALOT) of bding

hope we don't break our airmattress!!!!!!!! hee hee - we'll have to change campsites EVERY day

hee he heee ROFL