trying to be strong

tai · #1 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 12:45 PM

im not sure how to take everything thats going on for me during my ttc journey. but i think im just going to call it quits for now. i will continue to chart just to keep track on my cy's and thats it. this is becoming too much for me and dh made it loud and clear that he dosnt want to ttc untill next year.

i will remain as your host and be there for you still. i will do my best to stay untop of the stats thread. im going to unlock it so you can post updates there.

thanks you for all of your love and support!

afgal · #2 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 12:54 PM

Wow Michelle. You know if I could I would reach out and give you a very big hug. I know this might seem a little weird coming from someone who's only been trying a few months but TTC is so emotionally hard. I wish you only happiness and hopefully you and dh can work it out. We are here for you honey. I hope that your body starts behaving right and maybe a break is all you need to conceive. I've heard of that happening. Once again I wish I could reach through the computer and give you a big hug. I draw much strength from you. Please try to keep your chin up and remember if you need anything at all we are here for you.

tai · #3 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 04:48 PM

unforntunately if i go on a true break it means back onto bc pills. the doc dosnt want me off of bc unless im on some kind of fertility meds to control my hormones. i was really hoping that this time my body would be normal and i could be au' natural.

i go to the doc on the 29th to talk thengs over and set up a lap to have a looksy then i will make my final decision. i sometimes think....what if dh didnt know and i hid the clomid or what ever the drug may be.... but then i feel aweful for just having the thought. man ttc can make a person crazy!

japennington · #4 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 05:30 PM

Tia - {{{HUGS}}} I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I totally understand the thoughts of sneaking and taking the Clomid. It took me a LONG time to get dh geared up to start all of this again. I hope that while on BCP you are still able to have the lap and hopefully get some answers. We are here for you anytime you need to talk or vent. Best of luck to you sweety!!!!

joyismine · #5 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 06:47 PM

Wow, Michelle, you about had me in tears... I think we all may be crazy!!! I totally understand the feelings you have. Just do what is the right thing for you even if other people don't understand it. You have been like one of the #1 girls that I have found to share with on the boards and although it makes me a little sad, I wish nothing but the best for you and DH. I can still pray for a BFP for you right, I'll just pray in the Lord's timing, then I can't screw up!!! I hope you get some answers at the doc's and maybe DH just needs some time. I think it affects them more than we know, that they see us struggle month after month. Please don't be a stranger, we are here for you girl!!

tai · #6 (**permalink**) 05-23-2007, 07:22 PM

thank you so much for all of your kind words! you ladies mean so much to me!

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Originally Posted by joyismine

I'll just pray in the Lord's timing, then I can't screw up!!!

yes you may! secretly i think i will alwasy be hopeful! ppl can and do get pg on bcp!

sweetpea1215 · #7 (**permalink**) 05-24-2007, 04:35 AM

Oh Michelle, it absolutely breaks my heart to see you going through all of this. I will pray that the Lord gives you the strength you need to get past this bump in the road and also that he blesses you with the baby you so desire. If it is God's will, it will happen, in his time. We just have to remember that, as hard as it may be sometimes. I'm so glad you will be sticking around here. It just wouldn't be the same without you. And yes, people do get pg on bcp's all the time, especially if they forget to take a pill.

Take care, we're here for you!