What is going on with me?

NewbieTTC · #1 (**permalink**) 10-18-2007, 11:30 AM

Today has been the weirdest day...let me preface by saying I think I o'd on 10/14, so 4 days ago, but not sure of that. I got a +OPK, but I didn't test the day before or the day after, so who knows...I know, I'm a terrible charter

Yesterday, my bbs were swollen. I woke up today and they are HUGMONGOUS and sore (please don't look - it hurts!!!

). I have the weirdest feeling in my stomach/abdomen - it's tight and hurts and feels like (TMI) I have gas bubbles but do not have actual gas. I also have a zit on my cheek that's been there for over a week and a new one just popped up on my forehead. Not to mention that I feel like I woke up on the wrong side of stupid...I can't focus on anything and that makes my job hard. I'm a total wreck. Am I just falling apart???

jaden222 · #2 (**permalink**) 10-18-2007, 02:01 PM

I wouldn't say you are falling apart.
But it might be that your body is starting to get ready to be pg. I don't want to get your hopes up to high, but i felt i lot of what you are feeling when i found out i was pg with my first pregnancy. Especially the bb's.
Good Luck girl!

NewbieTTC · #3 (**permalink**) 10-18-2007, 02:09 PM

Thanks Jodi!! I appreciate the feedback.

I hope you are right - but not going to get my hopes up.

leilani_louise · #4 (**permalink**) 10-18-2007, 08:06 PM

Well, not to add fuel to the already raging hope fire..... but those do sound like VERY promising symptoms.... I didn't have any of those but that is because I COMPLETELY didn't think I was pregnant when I concieved Ave.

How cool would it be for you and Em to be that close in your pregnancies though!!

you_me_and_baby · #5 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 05:43 AM

I'm in the same boat as you Tiff... Wishing you lots of baby dust!!!

as for the rage fire of hope... I'm finding that by the time you post that rage fire is a bon fire LMAO

Best of luck to you all!!

NewbieTTC · #6 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 06:02 AM

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I agree with the bon fire! I'm trying to not pay attention to it, but since I can't concentrate on anything else, it's always in the back of my mind...

Today, still have huge bbs, feel like a space cadet, my pants were very tight (I just bought these - they fit last weekend!!) and I went from snapping at my DH for getting a good night's sleep (i've been having the weirdest dreams, and my dog is not a good sharer of the bed!!

) to almost in tears for snapping at my husband and the thought of going out to dinner tonight with my neighbor. This isn't cool... It almost feels like

but worse.

you_me_and_baby · #7 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 08:01 AM

Hey ya,

I've got a little story!!

but first off. my Bon Fire is like so high that I'm scared its going to blow up! I said to my sister the other night this si so terrible, this is all I can think about. Am I, maybe? maybe not, maybe maybe not, maybe, maybe not. I'm analyzing EVERYTHING I can't think about anything else. I'm focusing on EVERY symptom. I'm comparing it to my how i feel before my period. She says that the symptoms are very similar to when you get your period. LOL I'm like great that helps me none... but anyways... onto the story.

Every single time my sister found out she was pregnant she has a "baby dream" basically she dreams about babies all night long, her holding baby her having a preggie tummy. its all baby. She ONLY has this dream when shes pregnant. LOL and its always just her. So whats your strange dreams about??? can you tell us about them?? maybe its your baby dream. SOrry for pouring gas on your bon fire LMAO.

Take care Tiff!!

NewbieTTC · #8 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 09:04 AM

I don't remember most of my dreams...just bits and pieces. The other night I dreamed that I was brushing my teeth but my gums were bleeding badly, i dreamed that my dog had chewed up my couch to the point it was a heap of wood splinters and cushion foam, and last night I dreamed that I was skiing in the middle of a desert. I've also been waking up SWEATING and then FREEZING cold. It's the craziest thing. I don't sleep for more than a hour or two at a time, either.

I wish that there was something obvious that happened when we were pregnant right away - like our stomachs turned green or something!

you_me_and_baby · #9 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 10:00 AM

Tiff, those are pretty crazy dreams. I've been sleeping like the dead, well until last night. Its funny you mention the sweating and freezing, thats me right now. I woke up so much last night cooking my behind off like sweating like crazy. I just kind of tacked it all up to that I've got the beginnings of a cold. My throat started getting sore yesturday thats all, no sniffles, no cough just this sore throat and then now last night, cooking,sweating and then freezing... beats me... Ill cross my fingers for me, and Ill cross my toes for you. I was thinking of testing this weekend. I'm going nuts just waiting for Aunt Flo. FF says that she would possibly arrive on Sunday. I HATE THIS WAITING GAME!!! AHHHHHHHHhHHHHHhHHHH!!!

NewbieTTC · #10 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 10:18 AM

It's fun to be chatty with you Taryn! Do you say your name like "Tear-in" or is it different??

I think we are both messed up!!

I know obsessions are bad, but it's kinda fun sometimes.

I just hate when

shows up, so I just keep preparing myself for her, KWIM?

What else is happening in your world?

you_me_and_baby · #11 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 10:42 AM

LOL its great chatting with you as well. I'm such a obsessed freak right now I check the boards for feed back every 5 minutes LMAO its sucks, your helping me out though giving me something new to see LOL.

Not much happening in my world today, I'm at work not really wanting to be here today cause I feel sooo crappy, its that cold hot thing thats driving me nuts, but once again I don't know if its the cold of if its something way more groovy!!! Of course at this early stage not knowing but wanting to know you can't really take anything for your aligments either. LOL FALLLLLLING APART!!

My husband and I have been trying since August of last year with know luck, so yeah I know what you mean when Aunt Flow comes, but in my case it was the fact she wasnt coming. With my husbands brother telling us their 12 weeks exspecting it just crushed me. Though I'm thrilled it still kinda hurts. I keep saying this (MAYBE MAYBE ITS MY TIME) I keep watching my fertilityfriend religiously in hopes somethings going to jump out and say guess what your pregnant!!!! LMAO that hasnt happend yet. Though I loved your idea about the green stomach!!

I'm all for that, some kind of concreate sign would be fabulous.

I'm hoping its for you. I know its hard to keep your hopes at a normal level. I'm the sameway and I know that if Aunt Flo shows her ugly face its going to be a HUGE blow for me, but I guess its what it is and it means that the dream is still there that it can happen for me still, as it will be for you.

Ill be watching the boards, cause im an addict

you_me_and_baby · #12 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 10:42 AM

LOL I should have said... TAG YOUR TURN! LMAO

NewbieTTC · #13 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 11:03 AM

I'm at work, too, and wish I wasn't. Fridays are supposed to be our shorter days, but today I have to have a meeting at 3:45 so it's not going to be for me.

My DH and I have been trying since October of last year...i've been off BC for 3+years, but we were using other methods. I've always had regular

so not sure what the hold up is. I know my mom and g'ma both had problems, so it may be something hereditary that isn't apparent. I seem to O each month, which is a good thing, any my cycles are consistently between 26-30 days, so that's normal. Dh hasn't had any testing, either, but his family seems to be a fertile bunch, so doubt it's that...he has 2 sisters and a brother, each sister has a child and his brother fathered twins a little over 2 years ago...

The last time i was this anxious was in March but it (obviously) turned up a

, so since then I've tried to be careful not to get too excited.

Know what you mean about seeing others get their

s. The ones that have tried forever make me feel like it will happen to me, but the ones that are accidents are frustrating.

Your turn

you_me_and_baby · #14 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 11:17 AM

My turn, hrm.!

I think by nature I get my hopes but, I'm an excitable person, and thats something that just happens. How many dpo are you??? Have you ready the book taking charge of your fertility? I'm 13dpo now and I've read bits and peices of taking charge of your fertility it is such an amazing resource!! When are you planning on testing??? God I want to go home.... LOL ... thats only cause I want to test. What will I do if its negative??? what will I do if af shows up on Sunday, what am I doing to do if my temp drops. LOL Every night before I go to bed, I rub my tummy close my eyes tight and say Please let this happen for me. then as I lay down to sleep I say temp don't you dare drop! LMAO I'm phyco! and this obssession is insane LMAO its kind of fun though. I never thought I'd be in the position I am to be thinking only about this, the what ifs, the wouldnt it be great, if I am what would be the most exciting way to tell everyone, and if I am do I hold off telling my husbands family because I don't wnat to take the spot light away from Chris and Chris. I know how special this is, and I wouldnt like to take that light away from them. I guess even though its nice they got pregnant, they werent trying it just kind of happend, so its not as thrillling as saying I've tried for a while year and FINALLY its happend to me LMAO

Are you getting scared of talking to me yet??? My brain is jumping around an awful lot LOL. Have fun at your meeting. I'm going to finish up whats left on my desk, in hopes of being sent home early, I think that woul dbe great!! It has been mentione that it will be a short day for me cause i'm not feeling to par.

Your turn hun

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NewbieTTC · #15 (**permalink**) 10-19-2007, 11:27 AM

Okay, this is it for me right now...I have to get to work

I've had a great time chatting with you!!! It's definitely made the day pass faster for me.

I seriously hope this is it for us!! I O'd on either the 13th or 14th, so i am 5 to 6 DPO. I'm such a terrible charter...

Have a great weekend. Try not to obsess too much

if you test.

NewbieTTC · #16 (**permalink**) 10-20-2007, 02:16 PM

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I've been religiously checking the boards in case you tested.

I don't know if it was our discussion yesterday or what, but I had a vivid dream last night about taking a HPT and getting a

. The weird thing is that I submitted it through a computer somehow and it popped up "You are definitely pregnant!"

So, we'll see.

How's the weather up there??

you_me_and_baby · #17 (**permalink**) 10-20-2007, 07:31 PM

Hey there hun. I've been so sick that I just didnt have the heart to test. I'm going to hold out for Aunt Flo!!! I'm not sure what would be more disappointing aunt flo or a BFN

I hope you get a BFP

that would be sooo terrific!!

The wheather here is wet!! its cloudy and cold. But then again I'm running a bit of of a fever LOL I'm under the wheather! LMAO get it. wheather LMAO I'm a butthead LOL off to bed for me.

Take care and Ill catch you tomorrow.

NewbieTTC · #18 (**permalink**) 10-21-2007, 07:45 AM

I hope you are feeling better!!! I understand about not testing - it is disheartening to see the

.

for us both!!

you_me_and_baby · #19 (**permalink**) 10-21-2007, 08:20 AM

Oh I'd love to test, I'm impatient enough to test. If Aunt Flo does not come by the 29 I will test, I have a doctors appointment on the 30th so that way if it comes back as a BFN and yet I have no period it might mean something else. I'd think by then if Aunt Flo hasnt come you'd think I had a chance but if its negative that makes no sense LMAO

Oh well, laundry day today. Take care Tiff and have a GREAT Sunday

NewbieTTC · #20 (**permalink**) 10-21-2007, 10:48 AM

Okay, here's the update for today...if it's

she's being weird this time around!!

*

s are still huge, my cups runneth over

* still feel like I'm on the wrong side of stupid
* muscle spasms in my abdomen
* feels like a muscle pulling on the left side, low, down around my pubic bone
* HAD to POAS, all I have are OPKs, so I figured why not

, it was only a shade lighter than the control line, which is strange
* feel hungry but fill up fast
* I weighed myself today