Hey all, i've been so busy this week that I've not had a chance to write.
So I had a follow up appointment with my doctor yesturday, he just wanted to check my blood pressure make sure the medication is working and that it has come down being on the medication. It has, so thats the good news! I think this doctor isnt terrible, she listens to me, kinda, and I think that she is doing the best she can't which isnt much. So she has decided the best course of action is to send me to a fertility clinic. She tells me its the best in the city and that they can then monitor me and get down to business and find out my problem. Yes we've been trying to get pregnant for just about a year and a half. Yes this is something we want really really badly. Yes we are activily trying and praying every month. But fertility problems??? I don't believe that there are serious problems, I believe that as of the last 2 cycles is the most normal my body has been in a year. I believe that some of its caused by the BCP and it has just taken this long to cycle through my system. I believe that its just a matter of time and we'll get pregnant. I'm not saying that the Fertility Clinic is out of the question, I'm just saying that maybe its a bit premature. I think my doctor sees me in the waiting room and starts dreading seeing me. When we start talking about my DH and I trying to have a baby she gets the deer in the headlights expression on her face...."uh oh, what do i say now, what can i say to this girl, uh no uh no uh no" I just feel that she is dumb founded has no idea where to go from here and its better to shuffle me off to someone else then to deal with me. What happens if I'm taking a spot at the fertility clinic of someone that truly needs some help, that there is truly legit problems. Maybe I've got some series legit problems, but maybe its too soon to say that. Maybe I'm being just too positive thinking... oh its not me its the BCP.... oh its not me DH and I, just have our timing off.....
So many thoughts not enough time. Whats your guys take?

maybe I'm just losing it. This week has been an extremely busy busy week, and today, I'm tired, my lips are chapped, I don't want to go to work because I know there is more work then I can complete in a day. I'm stressed out, I wanna pull my hair out!! I'M CRAZY SOMEONE HELP ME!! LMAO
Ciao for now all
PS. Hey Tiff, how ya feeling, has your book come in yet? you've been awfully quiet over there LOL. Late-a