I just re-read a post I made last year after I lost Jason and all I can say is "wow!". Time truly does heal your wounds and eases your pain. I don't have the anger anymore nor the sadness that was heartwrenching. I still think of my babies every single day but I know I will see them one day when I get to Heaven and in the meantime I've made peace with God over the losses.

A tiny update on me. DH and I aren't really TTCing anymore. If it does happen then wonderful, if not, then we keep moving forward.

I am now back on Metformin and it seems to be working better the second time around. My doctor decided to start me out on low doses and increas them slowly and it is working out better. I started eating low carbs to watch my sugar intake back in Sept 2006. In January this year I started working out and am now running just about every day. I have dropped 17.2 pounds and feel wonderful. It's been a slow process but it's getting there.

DH and I are working on strengthening our marriage and will be attending a seminar called Towards a Growing Marriage by Gary Chapman. I highly recommend you read his books if you never have. They are great christian books on marriage, family and your relationships with your children. DH and I truly enjoyed his Five Love Languages book.

Anyway, that's about me. I am keeping up with my FF mainly for knowing where I an in my cycle - not for TTC purposes.


HUGS to you all!!!

Misty, I see you are PG again!! Congrats!!!!

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I wanted to second what you said.
We lost our son Samuel on May 4, 2005 at 20 weeks. He was due Sept 19, 2005. How crazy is it.. He was due in sept also but the year in between your 2 angels.

Great job with the weight loss! Thats fantastic!!!

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Dh Jason
My babies...
Katherine Elizabeth 6/04/04
Samuel Lee 5/04/05 (our son with God)
Griffin Michael 04/13/06
Harrison Gabriel 04/27/08


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SAFE to going home.

Oh yeah, they believe that he had Trisomy 21 also but we were unable to confirm. They took tissue samples after he was born and sent them away to be tested but they were unable to grow his cells. So we wont every really know for SURE.

Hi,
I am about 2 1/2 weeks out from my miscarriage, and I try to push all of the anger and heart and desperation into a corner, but sometimes it just leaks out. I had a dream last night of my baby boy, he was so perfect, just like an angel, he had blonde hair and blue eyes, I loved that I saw him. For some reason I woke up this morning with a certain amount of peace. I remember holding him for a few minutes, but then he was gone, but I could still feel him. Healing is so hard...................I wish this pain on no one.

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4/04-Beautiful baby boy~Adriano
3/05-DH underwent chemo & banked sperm
(8/06-IVF cycle #1 cancelled
9/06-IVF cycle #2 w/ICSI --BFN-
2/07--PCOS & MTHFR hetero
Miscarriage#1~8 1/2 wks 5/07 baby girl~Nadia Loren &8/07

Feb. IUI w/clomid, metformin, & ovidrel bfp 12dpiui
"When God takes something from your grasp, He is not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better."
"Your baby is waiting for you. It just has a little more angel work to do before heading to Earth."

Let us rejoice and know God is Still ABLE.. Here goes the second try, praying it is not eptopic. I had went through the entire process of IVF. It was horrible, They were only able to retrieve one egg. Of course. After I got home I got so sick, passed out and lost a tooth. I spent the whole night in the ER only to find out nothing was wrong? I got my teeth fixed the next morning ( thank GOD for good insurance) only to find out the egg was not good. Four months later we got pregnant on our own. ME 31, DH 29. iT WAS EPTPIC HERE GOES SIX MONTHS AFTER THAT, TEST RESULT WILL BE IN TOMORROW. Hang in there ladys....