I am sorry that you feel this way, it is just horrible!!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers. Just remember one thing, don't sacrifice your morals or beliefs just b/c your future boyfriend wants you too. Most teenage boys don't believe in abstaining from pre-marital sex, and the ones that do aren't easy to find. Do you attend church? Isn't there a mentor you can talk to or a school counsler? You can look in the back of the phone book for Christian counseling and it is usually free. Good luck in the future, trust in God and it will be bright
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"Father, grant me your peace as I stroll down life's pathway. Teach me to see beauty and purpose in the bends I encounter. Your ways are not my ways. Thank you for carving out the perfect landscape for my life. Amen."
"My God, I have never thanked You for my thorns. I have thanked You a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to You along the path of pain. Show me that, through my tears, the colors of Your rainbow look much more brilliant."