I am so tired of death, I was one of those people who had never been to any funerals except for my grandma but she was 86 and ready to go. In the last year and 1/2 we have lost, my dad, my mom, an aunt, another grandma, a grandpa, and even my 14 year old doggie friend. My mom is the most recent (the day after thanksgiving) and I don't know how to find the strength to do this again. She was my best friend, I talked to her at least twice daily. I am doing the denial thing right now, I just stare at the obit, feeling the whole time like she is still at home sleeping, she did that alot. I guess if I let myself believe that she is still sleeping, it will be a reason for the phone not ringing. The funeral is tuesday, I feel like I am just waiting to go see her again, and even though I keep telling myself that monday and tuesday will be the last two days I spend with her, it still doesn't seem real. Why should anyone have to lose both of their parents so soon? I am only 26 and my little sis is only 22, That is just too young to feel so alone. Sure I have my sis and in-laws, and I couldn't make it without my kids, but it feels strange that there is really no-one else on our side of the family. I am so thankful that my in-laws are so caring. Sorry so long, but I really needed that. Please pray for my sis and I and our families... We need all the prayer we can get.

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Missy

Aliyah Jaye

born March 29, 2007

9:05 am

7lbs 5oz

19 & 1/2

Missy, I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your mom and other family members. I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. You are in my prayers....



Karen

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Thank you karen, We need all the prayers we can get, my sisters hubby is only back til wed, he is in the military and has to go back to mississippi. She feels so alone besides me and her 2 1/2 year old she is now pretty much alone, also pray for my mom's companion, he was with her 4 yrs and took care of her meds, appts, friend, ect. and now he is all alone in the place she passed away. I feel almost worse for him than for ourselves, I don't know if his income alone is enough. But THANK YOU soo much for your prayers, what is that about if 2 or more come together and pray..... or something like that.

Missy, I am so sorry for your losses and we are for you and your lil sis.

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