Well I'm so glad for this board as everyone I mention this to - laughs or scoffs at me. I guess I should give you a little background.
My DS was born Feb. 21st, 2003 - after 10hrs induced labour. He was 2wks late and at that point (although I wanted to avoid the dreaded pitocin) opted for an induction. The pitocin was started at 11am and painful contractions started immediately. The only "preparation" I had for this was a semi-positive attitude that I could have a pain-free labour and a Pre-natal class which combined some pain management techniques and what to expect etc. Well I got to 3pm - but I gradually felt more and more out of control. The pain was unbearable and I just was not able to cope. I asked for pain meds and was given stadol as I had to wait for the epi guy to arrive. It did nothing for me...I received the epi at 5:30pm and my son was born at 9:07pm. I was completely numb and had severe tearing. Although I was able to BF about a half hour later I still regret that I wasn't able to have the birth experience I dreamt of. My DH, Mom, MIL and Midwives insist I did awesome job but I feel like I could have had a better experience without the epidural...so that's what I'm hoping for this time around. BF'ing is very important to me and although I ultimately BF'd my DS for 2 years I believe it would have gotten off to a better start if drugs were not a part of the birth experience. DS had issues with latching from the very beginning and I had to fight with a sleepy...lazy feeder for atleast a month. Much of which I attribute to the drugs. Sooooo....where does this leave me? I just ordered the Hypnobirthing Book which outlines the Mongan method and a CD as well. I'm hoping this is the key to helping me relax as I'm sure this was my biggest problem the first time around. I'd love to do classes but they are quite expensive and wouldn't definetly not fit in our budget. So I just wanted to introduce myself and hopefully get to know women who have the same philosophy as I do. I'd really like a supportive place to prepare for the "NCB experience" I dream of.
Thanks for reading...
Michelle