WHERE DO I BEGAN WELL IM A SINGLE MOTHER WITH 2 CHILDREN AND ONE ON THE WAY THINGS HAVENT BEEN SOO GOOD WITH THE BABYS FATHER HES A BIT OLDER THAN ME AND WE ARE ALWAYS FIGHTING. LAST YEAR I FINALYMADE UP MY MIND TO LEAVE HIM FOR GOOD BUTTHEN HE MOVED TO FLORIDA AND CONVINCED ME IT WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER OUT HERE. WELL IVE DISAGREED 3 TIMES AND HAVE MOVED BACK AND FOURTH WITH TWO KIDS UNDER 6 AND ONE ON THE WAY. MY LIFE WITH THIS MAN HAS BEEN HELL BETWEEN HIS KIDS THT ARE NOW ALL OF AGE HIS EX WIFE THAT MOVED FROM CALI IN WITH HIS BROTHER AND NOW INTO OUR OLD HOUSE OUT HERE WHICH IN ONLY THE NEXT STREET OVER. aND HAVING NO FRIEND OR FAMILY OF MY OWN OUT HERE. I HAVE FOUND MYSELF TO THIS PAGE LOOKING FOR SOME SORT OF ANSWER IVE BROKEN DOWN A FEW TIMES THEY SENT ME TO WARD B FOR 24 HRS BECAUSE I CALLED THE WRONG 1800 HELP NUMBER AND SENT ME HOME WITH ATIVAN. I HATE TAKING THEM BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IM DOING DAMAGE TO MY CHILD BUT WITH ALL THIS STRESS AND DEPRESSION I HAVE THE SAY NOT TAKING IT WWOULD BE WORSE. WHEN I GOT PREGANAT I DID IT SO I COULD STOP ALOT OF THE CRAZINESS THAT WAS GOING ON IN MY HEAD ADN TO STOP MY DRINKING AND DEAL WITH CRAZP I HAD PUT IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD BUT NOW THAT MY FIANCE SEES ME SOBER HE HATES ME AND THINKS IM THIS BIG ***** AND NAG IM ONLY 25 AND IM GETTING CALLED A NAG FOR STAYING HOME AND HAVING NO LIFE JUSTLIKE HE WANTED BEFORE HE MADE FRIENDS AND PEACE WITH HIS FAMILY. HES ALWAYS GOT SOMTHING MEAN TO SAY OR YELL AND I GUESS I WOULD GET TIRED OF WHAT I SAY TO BUT WHEN U STAY AT HOME EVERYDAY AND DONT EVEN GO OUTSIDE ANYMORE WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GOING TO SAY. IM GLAD YOUR LEAVING TO HAVE FUN WHILE IM CRYING AGAIN. i GUESS I CAME HERE SO I DIDNT FEEL SO ALONE AND SO CRAZY LIKE MY FIANCE KEEPS TELLING ME I AM MY FAMILY SAYS IT TO BUT THATS BECAUSE I KEEP COMING BACK AND FOURTH TO HIM AND NOW A CHILD ON THE WAY AND NOT TO MENTIONS MY HORMONS I THINK THEY HAVE GONE THREW THE ROOF OF OUR NEIGHBORS HOUSE BY NOW. iM STARTING TO WONDER IF I AM GOING CRAZY PEOPLE TELL ME JST TO RELAXE AND HAVE A BEER BUT THEY ALSO SAY TO TAKE MY ATIVAN. I DONT KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO I HAVE NO JOB NO LIFE AND NO LIFE IN ME ANYMORE TO GET UP AND DO SOMTHING ABOUT MY LIFE. WHEN WAS HAVING A FAMILY AND BEING PREGNANT THE HARDEST AND THE WORST PART OF LIFE ANDIF WE KNEW THIS Y WOULD WE TELL OTHERS TO START A FAMILY ???

LOST SAD CONFUSSED

Hi there
Sorry to hear about you going through all this by your self. I am currently TTC and I am seeing a dr because of my fertility issues. When i first starting to see him i was on anti-depressents lexapro. I don't have kids yet but when i was really derpressed i cried all the time and didn't want to leave my house. I felt really bad for dh because he would always hold me and tell me that everything will be ok. I went to a dr. and they put on the meds. and my fertility dr told me that it would be ok if i got preg on the antidepressents. The only thing i can say to you is to go and see the dr and see if thet will give you something else besides what you are taking. A doctor is not going to give you anything that is going to hurt you and your baby.

Good luck!!

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Lacie (27)
David (29)
TTC#1 for three years now

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