I didn't feel the baby move hardly at all today and even poking her/stuff like that didn't get a reaction. I called the hospital tonight after I took a nap because she STILL wasn't moving and they said to come in. I got there and they sent me to L&D and found her heart rate, which was 118-140, and my dr requested a NST. She failed and I was hooked up about 2 hours (usually they pass in 1). The dr was called again and he said to release me since I have an U/S on Friday because of concerns anyway, and if she's not moving to come in again. She did move a few times while I was there, but nothing major at ALL.

This is starting to bug me. She's been measuring small for 3 months now and I still have a really hard time holding down food, and have lost 9 pounds at this point, which is why they're doing the U/S Friday. They want to see if she's developing and growing right. I don't like not knowing.

__________________

that everything is ok at your u/s! Keep us posted.

__________________

I called work this morning and asked that I start leave now instead of at the end of the week. No prob. I just don't want to risk anything else at the moment since I don't know what's going on.

I'm SO MAD. Why am I always in such a bad mood it seems? I called MKD last night to let him know what's going on and he was concerned and such, said he'd have his phone on so I could talk to him after I get out of the hospital. He flipping lied. Fell asleep. Finally texts me and says "I'm busy" like I'm a nuisance and haven't heard from him since. I sent a ton of texts (feel like a stalker) this morning and told him if that's how he's going to be he can just stay up there. I told him if he doesn't think I'm important enough to even make time for and if this baby isn't important enough to let me get her room ready then he can forget about the other two kids we have together too. Man I have a temper but he makes me so upset! How come he has to act like such a jerk?

__________________

Hope all is well with the baby. WHy do men do what they do? Who knows.

__________________






I love my

(((hugs))) Hope all goes well at your u/s.

__________________
~Jen





Co-Hostess of Interracial/Intercultural Families