I am in the process of moving right now and my family is already bothering me to baby sit her. They keep going on and on about how I will need a break, and honestly- I don't want a break right now. I want to see her, I don't want them babysitting her! I really don't think they will care for her the way I do. I don't want her sleeping in a crib alone and my family thinks I am insane for that and I think if I leave them with her they are going to do it and she may spit up and choke and they wont be there to help her. I know that sounds nuts, but she chokes all the time still and it scares me! They also think I need to be feeding her cereal with a spoon- I don't want to do that either right now. I think they are going to do it behind my back. I know I sound overly paranoid when I tell them this, but I feel she is MY child, I should be the one who says what is going to happen and what doesn't. I don't trust them and it is so hard saying that to them. I don't think I can hold them off much longer without telling them that. And my sisters, Good LORD that is a whole different situation. How does one politely say, "You don't even watch your own children correctly- why would I let you watch mine?!" or "Your child is strange and it freaks me out." LOL! At the hospital my niece kept squeezing Maddies hands until she cried! I yelled at her to stop it and she kept trying to do it, all secret like. I would wrap her hands up in the little cuffs or whatever they are called, and she kept trying to get Maddies hands out to touch them after I told her to stop over and over. It was so strange and horrible! I don't want her around Maddie now because it freaks me out! And I told my mother that I don't want my sisters children around her because they go to a huge school and I am afraid they are going to bring back H1N1 to Maddie and my mother is all like, "well- you cant keep her away from them- if they get it who cares." WHO CARES?!!! I care a lot, you crazy person! And my MIL- I don't even want to think about that! It is so stressful to me trying to combat all of them at once. I really regret moving close to them now I just don't know what to do anymore! Sorry so long I am just so stressed over this. I want to move to Alaska right now!

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