Ok ladies, I am sorry it has taken all week. Its been a very long week.

Birth Story:
Things went from I dont think they are doing anything to oh crap I guess they are! I was useing a contraction timer online and they were all over the place. No real pattern. This was Sunday night. I would try and sleep and get wolk up go back to sleep and so on. Some time between 1 and 2am I noticed that they were forming a pattern but was half sleepy so I didnt really register it in my brain. At 3am almost on the dot my water broke. It was with some force too. It took me a min to realize what had just happen. I got up and was like well maybe not.... there wasnt a lot of fluid. So I called the doula I had been working with. Left her a message, then called the office on call number. Asked them to page my midwife who wasnt the one on call that night. They refused and had to call the on call and get her permission. What ever. So they get my midwife Kim on the phone. I talked to her, and go so since we know its gonna happen fast when do I head in because I want as little time there as possible. She said when they were on top of one another to call her house and head in. I got off the phone and decided a nice hot shower sounded amazing. My contractions had stoped for the moment but I knew it was the calm before the storm. Man was I right lol I got out of the shower and they had gone from every 15min to every 2-3min. This was at almost 4AM. I decided that I better head in beacuse it was going a bit faster then I thought it would. I called Kim back told her and she said she was headed there. I made sure I had everything (for got stuff anyway lol) and went to tell my grandmother who was clueless at that point still. So she was up and heading to the bathroom I said thats nice I am heading to the hospital to have a baby. She was like What?? So I repeated my self lol. She was like I am glad you can be so calm about it... lol. So I drove myself to the hospital. Its not very far. I called my bestfriend to talk to me while I drove over there. He was pretty worried about me. So I get there and tell the lady in the ER i need help up to L&D. I swear it took them forever to get down stairs. There was NO way I could sit so I put my stuff in the wheelchair and pushed it. The nurse thought I was crazy lol. She was really nice though. I think my midwife had warned them all though...

So we get up to L&D and my midwife is like what are you doing? I couldnt sit! She just shook her head. So the nurse is like there is a gown in the bathroom if you want. Nope, wearing this T for a reason, I dont care what happens to it. For my rock friends, it was an MTV shirt that I labor and delivered in She was like ok. I was standing by the counter just breathing through contractions when Kim came in and sat down. Just kind of started talking to me. All of a sudden I felt the urge to push so I ditched the sweats and asked her to check me because I did NOT want to be pushing if I wasnt at 10 yet. Nope was at 7. UGH. That would be the only time I laied on the bed before he was born lol. So all of a sudden transition hit like a brick. OMG that sucked. As Kim was suggesting rocking my hips to help baby I had the urge to get on my knees so I kneeled on the floor. I am sure that was a site. They asked if I wanted a blanket under my knees and I was like sure. Then, I had the urge to not really be on all fours but not be up all the way either so I just grabed what ever was close to me to kind of help me support myself sort of upright but not, yea it was the tray that they put the food on and stuff LOL. So my midwife got up and stood by it so it wouldnt move. I heard Kim say no more people. She knew I didnt want many people in there. I honestly feel like she protected my birth experience. I made a comment about wishing I had brought my heating pad with me, I was feeling the contractions in my back a lot. I think he was turned the wrong way for a bit. Kim told a nurse to get a hot pack for my back and omg that felt like heaven lol. I remember telling Kim at one point that transition sucked. I also decided I couldnt do this. She said yes I could I had before and I knew this was the worst part. I was like yea but this still sucks lol. Then all of a sudden I got the urge to stand up. At that point I leaned on the bed and was hit with one of the worst contractions I would have, and the urge to push. I asked for the pillow and burried my face in it and was kind of loud while pushing. It didnt take many pushes and out he came, while I was stnading there leaning on the bed lol.

She then asked if I wanted to hold him and when I said yes she was like well I have to pass him between your legs so reach down and grab your baby. That was such an odd feeling. I brought him up to me and was like OMG I did it and he was so cute and fairly clean. It was amazing. I called my best friend and he was just like wow check you out lol he was amazed. It was awesome, everyone left me alone, let me do my thing and I loved it. I started shaking and was like I have to sit so I got on the bed with him. At that point I ditched the shirt and just held him skin to skin. They got warm blankets and put them on us. That was awesome feeling lol. Kim waited till the cord stoped pulsing for us to clamp it. I tried to cut it but was shaking to bad I had her do it. At that point the placenta was ready to come. Everyone was amazed at how big it was lol. I was like WOW he was eattin well lol.

Stats: Alarik Robert, 8lbs 7oz, 20in, born at 5:05am.

We were discharged Tues evening. They had to wait for his bili leve to come back from the lab. It was up a bit which sucked. The nurses were awesome. Never tried to take him from me, asked before they did anthing at all. Let me just kind of be unless other wise needed. The peds hated me. The first one on monday tried to walk in the room with out knocking and I was changing. He got mad when I told him he had to wait a min. Then he got mad that I wouldnt let the baby leave the room. What ever dude. The ped on Tues thought I was out to do my kid in I think. She first went on and on about the no vit K shot. He had oral vit K thanks. Then she was going on and on about the PKU. Doing it at his peds after my milk comes in. Nope she refused to dishcharge him till I agreed to do the PKU in the hospital. GRRRR I was pissed. I agreed though so he could get out of there too. She told me it was dependent neglect. Umm no its not but what ever. During our stay though we were popular lol No one could believe I drove myself, or that I had him standing up lol. It was pretty funny. So we finally get home... an hour before Karis Kindergarden concert!

So, we went to Karis concert and she did awesome, loved showing off her new brother to all her friends. Wed I had an appt to have his pics done and had to take him to the breastfeeding clinic to get help with our latch and check his bili level again. His level with their scaner was 16.1, lab was ordered it came back at 17.1... he was admitted to the hospital for light therapy, IV and blood work. My baby was so dehydrated and had no signs of it that you could notice really. It was horrible. They couldnt get the IV in, they couldnt get the lab work really, it was horrible to see him get stuck over and over. I drew the line and said hell no when they mentioned scalpal vein. Like hell were they putting it in my babys head. We were there till Thursday afternoon.

I have yet to really get any rest. Its been non stop. My grandmother is being less then helpfull. I swear she acts like I went on vacation. Keeps commenting on how I am not the only one that is tired and so on. When Alarik was in the hospital she made a coment that I was in bed relaxing with a book and had my baby so what else did I need. I went off, I was like I have a sick baby on an IV under lights and ooo it wasnt pretty. Tonight she told me I had no compassion for anyone and that I wasnt the only one that was tired and worn out. I wanted to cry. I am so tired, sore and ready to roll over and die. Last night I noticed that Nikholas is sick so I wont get rest any time soon. My whole body hurts. It sucks.

Alarik had a ped appt yesterday, they said he is up to 8lbs 9oz. He was down at 7lbs 14oz at one point. So he gained awesome this week dispite all the crap. She ordered lab to check his bili level again and will see him back Tues. She thinks he has an umbilical hernia but cant tell for 100% till the chord peice falls off. He also has a small hemorrage on his one eye that should go away in time. My poor little man.

Ooo and my doula made it to the hospital at 5:30, only 25min to late lol she felt horrible.

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