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Well girls I'm sad to so that I found out on Wed. that this was not a viable pregnancy. My numbers were going up but not doubling like they were supposed to. I had my first ultrasound on the 5th and there was no gestational sac but the Dr. wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt and the nurse even told us maybe we just had a slow growing baby or maybe we were a week behind what we had originally thought..(even though I thought that it sounded weird because we did a timed IUI). I went back in on the 11th for another ultrasound and the Dr. didnt say anything except to get dressed and meet him in his office. I knew something was up...in fact looking back I knew something was up the week before the first US because I wasn't having any symptoms but I had read that you may go a few days without your boobs being sore so I just assumed it was that. He called us in to his office to tell us that it wasn't viable. He said even if it was in the uterus that because of my numbers and the fact that there wasn't a visible sac it wasn't going to be viable.

I had my beta done on the 11th and it was up to 1111. My RE called and said that he was even more worried because with a beta that high there should be a gestational sac which led him to believe that it was an ectopic pregnancy. We talked about the methotrexate shot and agreed that all signs pointed to an ectopic so DH and I agreed to the shot. You always have the "what if" questions and DH and I felt so guilty that we had made this decision but we trusted the Dr's and we had to do what was best for everyone.

The plan was to go in Friday and get the shot and then take it from there. On Thursday I started bleeding so I called RE and he said we'd wait until Monday but he wanted me to repeat my beta on Saturday. I repeated on Saturday and his Resident called me and said my beta was 1535 and that my RE wanted me to go to the ER to get the shot and not wait until Monday. I went to the ER and ended up having really bad cramps while I was there so they did an US and confirmed the ectopic.

I feel better about the whole situation since they confirmed it on the US. The first two ultrasounds they couldn't see anything in the tubes and so we questioned our decision, but when they did the ultrasound last night it was so painful that there was no doubt it was an ectopic. The RE showed us where it was, it was 1.2-1.5 cm in my left tube. DH and I are ready to move on and try again. After 4 years of trying it truly is a miracle that we got pregnant in the first place and even though it ended and not the way we wanted it to, we know we can do it again.

I wish all you girls the best and a happy and healthy 9 months! I'm sure I won't be too far behind you!!