I don't know where else to go and what to do ..I need more prayers and good thoughts for Samiah.
Samiah went to the cardiologist today and her heart is way worse then they thought he said she still has the 3 holes and the walls look like swiss cheese he heart is large and she has something called ebstein's anomaly that is on the right side of her heart..

The Dr told us about this like it was no big deal and it was a common sugery I just looked it up online and it is very serious..

My husband just called me from work and told me he has been reading about this ebstein's anomaly and he read it is rare so he wants to make sure the dr's have done this surgery before and if not we need to find someone that has and someone very good..

I am so scared I don't want anything bad to happen to my Samiah..

I feel so helpless there is nothing I can do to help her heart but pray and ask for prayers...
I wish I could just give her my heart and I could take hers....

please pray for her.. The Dr said he was going to talk with his team and see what they should do next and was thinking surgery now or in the next month..

This is the hardest thing in my life I have ever have went through ..
I feel bad and guilty because I don't go to church and I am not the best Christian (not even close) And I am asking God to heal my baby but why would he answer me ?
That is why I am asking all of you all to pray...Just in case he didn't want to answer me..

I am scared she wont make it through surgery and I just could not handle that....
Sorry if this letter seems scattered my mind is all over the place...

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