I havent really brought this up other than mentioning in passing that I have medical issues going on that I would get to at a later date, but it is coming up on a final decision and honestly it looks like our best choice is to go through with it.

Here is the situation:
03/08 I got hurt at work on my ambulance. I was klutzy and fell out of the back of it. I was doing all sorts of stuff forever trying to get better, the whole time being out of work. I eventually got laid off cause I was out so long. After 6 months the dr that i was seeing decided that he could not help me anymore and I was a lost cause and referred me to a Rehab Specialist. I had been asking him the whole time for a MRI of my neck, but he kept focusing on my shoulder.

I went to the specialist and the first thing she did was an MRI. We found I had a few herniation's in my neck, but one in particular was scary. It is pressing on my spinal cord. She instantly sent me to a surgeon that I did not like. Especially since he messed my sister up in a surgery on her lower back 5 years ago. I asked for a 2nd opinion and found out I was PG right before the 2nd opinion. I called the first surgeon who of course would not do surgery. After meeting with the 2nd surgeon he decided that my risk of being paralyzed was worse than any risk to the baby and if I wanted to do it he would do the surgery.

This was in Dec. I was scheduled Jan 7th for the surgery but the workers comp company freaked out and refused to do anything. I had to meet with my rehab specialist first they said, who happened to be on vacation until mid Jan. After waiting for an appt with her at the end of Jan she couldn't believe that they were making me wait. In the meanwhile I had already talked to my OB who felt that he agreed with the neurosurgeon. There are no tetrogenic affects in any of the medications they will be putting me under with and the surgery is of my neck, not anywhere close to the baby. He feels there is minimal risk to the baby and we should proceed.

The rehab specialist sends a letter saying I should have the surgery and wanting to know why they haven't approved it. After that the workers comp people call me and say they have to "meet with my OB to see if he knows the risks involved". That was last Wed. They are having their final decision meeting today and I should hear something for sure tomorrow, but I cant see them denying this after 3 different specialists say it is what is best for me.

So that is the story of what medically happened. For me it has been a hard road. I have been on pain killers and muscle relaxers since I got hurt. They manage my pain levels to about a 5 out of 10 and that is about as good as I get most days it isnt even that good. I cant work, I cant drive, I cant clean house, I cant take care of my kids, I cant exercise, I cant live pretty much. It gets quite depressing at times.

So to top off the idea that I need to decide on what to do with my surgery, I have to take these medications in order to even get out of bed daily and after trying staying in bed and not taking them I just end up screaming cause of the pain. So the baby is being exposed to what my OB says is minimal amounts of medications every day, but then if I have the surgery I risk miscarriage. I also have two 5.5YO twins that need their mommy that i cant take care of and that I have a chance that I could never take care of them because I could be paralyzed with the slightest fall or low speed car accident.

Overall it is just depressing. I have to have this surgery done. I cant be crying in bed every night in pain. I cant effect my DH or my children this way and I cant keep giving this baby narcotics. If they don't approve it, I am not sure what I can do.

So, anyways, that is my story on this. It is coming down to D day on decisions and if approved it will be done within a month since my OB said the sooner they do it the better.