I REALLY hate this, and it's aggrivating that I am already feeling like this. I have this feeling I can't shake... I feel empty and alone. I KNOW it's hormones 100%. I just don't recall feeling it to this extent before. Nothing is wrong, but I feel horrible. I feel so sad and by myself. I don't want SO to go to work because I have been missing him horribly and feel out of sorts when he is gone. Anyone who knows us and our relationship KNOWS this is unusual. Me and Jay have a GREAT relationship... but I tend to enjoy my time during the day while he is at work (and never had a problem admitting it heh). Every morning it gets harder and harder to see him walk out that door, and I have no idea why. I feel like there is something wrong between us, but the fact is, I don't think things have been any better than they are right now. We have even been talking about getting married finally in the next month or two. So why am I feeling like this? I told Jay lastnight that I didn't feel right, and he told me he has noticed that I have been a little off the past few days. He then proceeded to wipe my tears away, hugged me and reassured me how much he is in love with me.

But still, I just can't shake this horrible feeling....

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Ryann Addison 05-09-2008

Could it be a little part of PPD. You had one hell of a ride thoughout the pgncy. Id talk with your dr about how your feeling.

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I'm sure it's all the hormones trying to get themselves sorted out. That along with the tubal (which is generally a finality to your birthing experience) and the emotional rollercoaster ride you've been on with this pregnancy are enough to make anyone feel like you are feeling. Jay has also been so good to look out for you while you were on bedrest, that now you are probably feeling that disconnect since you now don't have that need - although I'm sure you still need help with the kiddos. It's not exactly the same as you personally needing care from him. It will all be ok. Congrats on the marriage talk. What a nice way to finish things up.

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It sounds like some depression sneaking in. I was thinking pretty much what Shannon said. You've been through so very, very much these past several months. It makes sense from the outside looking in that more or less "slamming back into normal" would have an effect on your emotions. Mix that with just giving birth and it's totally understandable. I'd definitely talk to a Dr. as soon as possible and see about meds or supps to help you over the hump. Hang in there, hon! It'll get better.

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oh honey, im so sorry you are feeling this way and i know what u are going through. im almost positive its the start of ppd because i had it with allison and i felt the same way. actually i had it with all of my kids but it was the worst with her. i would literally cry and beg my dh to not go to work after i had her, i could go and on. only three things got me through that dark time, one was zoloft, two was a good friend that i called nonstop to talk me down from the ledge (not literally) and dh.

the most important thing is to talk about this with a close friend (im here if u want to talk ) and your dr. just hang on honey, it gets better, i promise.

luv ya girlie!



p.s. did u get my pm?

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