Dylan has been doing great with his breathing. His respiration is still high but he will go home with high respiration. He can go home when he starts eating. There's the probem . I have been trying to nurse him which hasn't been going well. My milk supply is great and practically pours into his mouth but he won't swallow (or suck). I have had the lactation consultants come a couple times but they work with me and say he is just not ready yet. Ok, getting frustrating. We started bottle feeding today. Yeah, not going well. He took 4ml this evening . The biggest problem is he falls asleep as soon as they put him in my arms. They try to wake him and he opens his eyes but is not interested. Now I certaintly don't want to starve my son but he gets tube fed every 3 hours,so why should he work for his food? They say babies can't think that way but he sure doesn't care about eating. The doctor and nurses keep reminding me of how sick he was and how young he is but I just want him home . Plus the poor guy HATES his feeding tube and keeps pulling it out of his nose.



I have been staying at the hospital all day because I have to be there every 3 hours to TRY to nurse and by the time I am done with that and pumping I only have about 1.5 hours until the next time. Really getting old. So I do my school work during that time. But there is a really creepy family that hangs out there in the evenings and their language is absolutely offensive. Now I spent 5 years in the Coast Guard and was the only girl on a boat will 11 guys for 2 years so I can handle bad language but OMG this is terrible. The dad told his 1 year old to shut up ***** when he was crying. Ok, sorry for the rant.


I know we just need to give him time and it will eventually click but right now that bottle that they want him to eat looks HUGE.

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