Just felt like letting it all out! LONG
I just feel like letting all my frustrations out right now, and at this point I think this is the best place to do that!
So here is what happened, my shower was yesterday, Saturday, my mom and aunt spent so much time preparing they had made a ton of food and had custom decorations made, they spent hours planning the shower, on Friday night my mom called me in the middle of the night to tell me that my grandmother had an episode and she was taken to the hospital, and that my teenage sister needed somewhere to stay, my sis came over and my parents went to the hospital.
My grandmother had a massive heart attack, she was shocked back to life four times, and she is now struggling for EVERY breath becuase her living will says that she is not to be on any artifical means of life. I had to put on a happy face at my shower, which my aunt did not even get to attend becuase she was at the hospital. I was sitting there opening gifts and putting on a happy face, knowing that my family was at the hospital praying for my grandmas survival. It was crazy.
Now, it is an hour by hour struggle, one minute she is doing ok the next hour the family is being called from the waiting room because she takes a turn for the worst. I just do not know how I am going to deal with this eight months pregnant, it is such a struggle on a family, I wish in some ways that God would just let her live and be stable if she is going to live, or die, and not make us go through sitting on the edge of your seat all day feelings.
But on a lighter note, I got a bunch of really great stuff at my shower, I got ALL my big stuff except for monitors!! I was so happy!! But if you think about it today just pray for me that I will make it through this!
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