....and I am a mess!!!! He was two hours later leaving as I have been really struggling with him having to go this time. I know I need to be strong and be "happy" for Mackenzie but at this second I do not know if I can. I feel like I am failing big time....I can not stop crying. I know he will be back and as soon as he can but there is not firm date set yet and I am so sick of waiting on my immigration. I mean seriously how long does it take to read, and make a dissition. ALL we want is an answer so we can move on and be a real family.

I love him and Mackenzie more than anything in the world and I hate that we have to live like this.

I am so scard to do this all alone rate now. We were a great team and now I have to do everything my self and I am still nervouse about being a mom....sorry I know I sound pathetic. I just do not know what to do or where to turn this moment.

I hope from the bottom of my heart all you ladies are doing well. I will be catching up now in hopes it will get my head on strait.

Sorry for such a negative post

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Amanda, James & Sweet Mackenzie

7/17 -3rd Laparoscopic Surgery for Endometriosis
8/07 femara & ovidrel First Cy..... 8/24/07
(After trying for 6 years on and off)

Oh Amanda - So sorry this has been so slow and difficult for you. It's so like being a single parent, I know. Thank God you have your beautiful Mackenzie, and you don't have to go through any more pregnancy. BTW - I just got Goodstart coupons, so pm me your address and I'll mail them.

Good luck, and lean on us.

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Oh hang in there and I know this sucks!!!! Soon it will all be a memory! You are a great mom and MacKenzie is so lucky to have you!!!! Your in my prayers

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mom to: Charlton, Kaitlin, McKenzie
and introducing
Emersyn Cecilia
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(((HUGS)))) I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. The emotions you are feeling are natural. It will all be over before you know it

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awww i can only imagine how had it is... but youll get into a groove. I hope things work out soon and you all can move on with your lives! Good luck.

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I'm so sorry, Amanda. I can''t imagine how hard this has to be for all of you.

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~ Rebecca ~
Drew 04.09.04
Landon 02.21.06
and Max 05.28.08

I am sorry you have to go through this. I hope you hear soon about the immigration. We are all here for you, so dont feel bad at all if you need to vent. I have learned having a newborn is very tough and emotional so feel free to PM me if you just need to talk. HUGS!, I hope you guys are together again before you know it! BTW Mackenzie is too cute, it looks like she is smiling in your siggy pic. I have been having a hard time just getting a pic with Mariah's eyes open, talk about a cute one with a little smile!

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Oh Amanda, I wish I was there so I could give you a big hug. This situation just plain sucks and I sure hope you hear something back from immigration soon!!! I know it has been nothing but a PITA!!! Hang in there sweetie. You are a great Mom and you will do what you have to do to get through this hard time. Trust me, you are about to realize that you are stronger than you ever though you could ever be. It's amazing how becoming a Mom can make you fell like you can walk through the pits of hell and still come out on top. You are an amazingly strong Woman. excellent Mother, and outstanding Wife. Please know that we are all here for you during this tough time. Heck you can PM me anytime and I have international calling in my phone plan and would be more than happy to talk to you in person if you just need someone to listen. Big hug and keep your chin up Momma!!!!

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