This is way to much.
Posted 03-13-2008 at 08:20 PM by saiphstar
I can't help it... im scared, im scared that he does not think foward. He will leave me in a bad position. sometimes the words he says are not good. I get the feeling he will want to take my baby away from me. All my life i have never fit in with a good group of people. This is my fault, im not that very social. I enjoy my alone time. And i fear he takes it as he can't be my friend threw this and allow us to work together. I have a feeling one of this times i will get too stressed out and miscarry. I almost think i might secretly want it. That way i can get away from people and hide. I know im depressive, I get feelings of wanting to die all the time. all i can do to be nutritious and get exercise. Not sure whats going on other then im scared. I am getting no support from him. I just want to die. id write more but im not sure what to say
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Hello Saiphstar,
I'm new to this site, however, I'm a veteran at depression and not liking myself and never fitting in...then that magical day my son was born, believe me, it all changes. I'm still guilty of being a poor parent at times, I'm still guilty of thinking I brought these children into my life out of selfishness but now its different, checking out is no longer an option, and finally you'll feel purpose. My marriage is in the gutter right now and I'm still holding myself together for my kids. You will too. You're exactly where you're supposed to be. You'll do great! I know its hard to believe now (because I was the same depressed, anxiety ridden pregnant person---oh who by the way also smoked cigarettes), but this too shall pass and at the end of the tunnel is the most perfect being you'll ever see! Good Luck! |
Posted 03-18-2008 at 07:45 PM by susiebear1
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>>> Not sure whats going on other then im scared. I am getting no support from him. I just want to die.
In addition to finding help on this board, you must really find help in your own area! Surely there are support groups where you can discuss your feelings and what is troubling you? |
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Posted 03-18-2008 at 10:04 PM by Muntab
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Please talk to your doc about your depression. You may have a hormonal issue or something else that is easy to solve. It's good that you are talking about your feelings here but you need to get some assitance from a doc or a therapist. You don't have to feel this way, there are treatments and groups that can help you. Believe me, I know.
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Posted 03-19-2008 at 02:44 PM by enigma74
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hey ..its going to be ok, hang in there that baby is what your going to want to live for one day
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Posted 11-05-2009 at 12:20 AM by susu
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