She deserves it... she ******* deserves it!

JessicaLeigh

But I still want to be pg more than anything else... I'll be glad when I'm finally in the position to TTC again.... gosh, I can't wait to be a mom...

JessicaLeigh

AF came a few days ago... I think the morning of the 24th. Though she didn't stay nearly as long as normal... I was done by Saturday!

My meltdown that I had Tuesday has finally calmed. I'm still unhappy about not having Lily Grace, but everything happens for a reason, and the reason she's no longer with me is so Travis and I can grow together and get our lives the way we want them before we begin trying again, though if I had it my way, I'd already be pg again...

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JessicaLeigh

Still no AF today... I'm getting mad now. I just want to know WTF is going on inside my damn uterus! I've taken three tests... all BFN, but I'm only 12 DPO (according to one lady who charts... I don't chart)... I'm thinking I may not be pg, but I won't let my hopes down until I actually see AF.

In other news, BB is going to the hospital to have her baby today. I should have been due with Lily Grace on the 29th Oh well... I'll survive.

JessicaLeigh

BFN BFN I've had two BFNs today and yesterday. Yet I'm a week late on my period... I'm frustrated! I either want a BFP OR my period! I JUST WANT MY BODY TO TELL ME SOMETHING!

I'd prefer to have a BFP... I just want to be a mother so badly now!

Ok, that's all I have.

JessicaLeigh