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			<title>Tevron Adds Full Support for Microsoft Windows 7</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/roman12pavloyesk/2485-tevron-adds-full-support-microsoft-windows-7.html</link>
			<pubDate>Fri, 06 Nov 2009 11:11:19 GMT</pubDate>
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Nashua, New Hampshire, October 29, 2009 – Tevron today announced the addition of support for Microsoft Windows 7 to its suite of APM & Testing solutions. Windows 7 is designed for faster and more reliable performance. With 64-bit support, you can take full advantage of the latest powerful PCs.  With the latest releases of CitraTest, CitraTest APM, and CitraTest VU, Tevron again is taking the lead role in the APM & testing industry in providing support for every Windows environment including Windows 7 and every application that is accessible from Windows. As companies across the world upgrade to the new Windows 7 operating environment, Tevron’s APM & testing solutions will continue to offer the industry lead for application monitoring, load testing, and general automation. To learn more about Tevron’s automated testing solutions or to request additional information, please call +1.702.518.7435 or visit http://www.tevron.com.  

About Tevron:

Tevron is a global leader in APM and Automated Testing. Through our all encompassing   customer-centric vision and advanced technology, our APM & Testing Solutions allow the unique   flexibility of supporting every application across the enterprise with one methodology delivering the   ability to test, monitor, enforce SLAs, and optimize performance with confidence and ease. Founded   in 2001, Tevron is a global organization and is privately held. Our vast and diverse range of customers are global leaders and include companies such as Alcon Labs, Alverno, Northrop Grumman, Xerox, Hewlett Packard, Siemens, and Lucent Technologies, to name a few.

TRADEMARKS:

Tevron, the Tevron logo, and CitraTest are registered trademarks of Tevron, LLC. Windows 7 is a registered trademark of Microsoft. All other product references herein are either trademarks or registered trademarks of their respective owners.]]></description>
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Nashua, New Hampshire, October 29, 2009 – Tevron today announced the addition of support for Microsoft Windows 7 to its suite of APM &amp; Testing solutions. Windows 7 is designed for faster and more reliable performance. With 64-bit support, you can take full advantage of the latest powerful PCs.  With the latest releases of CitraTest, CitraTest APM, and CitraTest VU, Tevron again is taking the lead role in the APM &amp; testing industry in providing support for every Windows environment including Windows 7 and every application that is accessible from Windows. As companies across the world upgrade to the new Windows 7 operating environment, Tevron’s APM &amp; testing solutions will continue to offer the industry lead for application monitoring, load testing, and general automation. To learn more about Tevron’s automated testing solutions or to request additional information, please call +1.702.518.7435 or visit <a href="http://www.tevron.com" target="_blank">http://www.tevron.com</a>.  <br />
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About Tevron:<br />
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Tevron is a global leader in APM and Automated Testing. Through our all encompassing   customer-centric vision and advanced technology, our APM &amp; Testing Solutions allow the unique   flexibility of supporting every application across the enterprise with one methodology delivering the   ability to test, monitor, enforce SLAs, and optimize performance with confidence and ease. Founded   in 2001, Tevron is a global organization and is privately held. Our vast and diverse range of customers are global leaders and include companies such as Alcon Labs, Alverno, Northrop Grumman, Xerox, Hewlett Packard, Siemens, and Lucent Technologies, to name a few.<br />
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TRADEMARKS:<br />
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Tevron, the Tevron logo, and CitraTest are registered trademarks of Tevron, LLC. Windows 7 is a registered trademark of Microsoft. All other product references herein are either trademarks or registered trademarks of their respective owners.</div>


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			<title>Consolidate Unsecured Debt</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/melissaandrews86/2484-consolidate-unsecured-debt.html</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 05 Nov 2009 12:37:11 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[The unsecured debt consolidation loans (http://unsecured.debtconsolidation123.net/) that are not offered by all the borrowers nor are they given to all the debt consolidation loans seekers. These loans are actually given to people in need of loan who do not have any valuable asset to keep as security. What most people do not know about is that these unsecured credit card debt consolidation  are offered to people who have almost perfect that is, considerably good credit score.

Debt Consolidators (http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/) help in Consolidating debts assures no more harassing calls from creditors and you get your peace of mind back. A credit score can make many things easy in life so this can help you restore it back. For an unsecured debt consolidation services (http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/) , you need to show the lenders a good source of income which will assure them is going to take care of their loan repayment. Lenders also put a condition that there should not be any more borrowing in the future after this loan.

*"In This Christmas - Consolidate 70 percent of your unsecured credit card debt in 24 hours!" "Get rid of your credit card balances without bankruptcy -- guaranteed!. _We have Helped 4.5 Million US People._ We Can Help You (http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/apply-now.php)!"*


In most cases, one has to keep something as collateral against the loan that he takes and later this asset can be used to pay off the debt that his borrower was not able to pay. Thus, debt consolidation and unsecured loan can be the two characteristics of such a loan.  

Planning for an Business Debt Consolidation (http://unsecured.debtconsolidation123.net/)

When planning for an unsecured  credit card debt consolidation services (http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/)  reason out your decision to purchase it. Many times, it happens that people keep taking up loans and unlimited use of credit cards and incurring other debts, they do not realize how much debt they create for themselves. So carefully reason out the purpose of this loan. No doubt if you can no longer pay off your monthly installments, you can resort to debt consolidation program. This way all your debts will be paid off in an instant and you can start fresh.]]></description>
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<div>The <a href="http://unsecured.debtconsolidation123.net/" target="_blank">unsecured debt consolidation loans</a> that are not offered by all the borrowers nor are they given to all the debt consolidation loans seekers. These loans are actually given to people in need of loan who do not have any valuable asset to keep as security. What most people do not know about is that these unsecured credit card debt consolidation  are offered to people who have almost perfect that is, considerably good credit score.<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/" target="_blank">Debt Consolidators</a> help in Consolidating debts assures no more harassing calls from creditors and you get your peace of mind back. A credit score can make many things easy in life so this can help you restore it back. For an unsecured <a href="http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/" target="_blank">debt consolidation services</a> , you need to show the lenders a good source of income which will assure them is going to take care of their loan repayment. Lenders also put a condition that there should not be any more borrowing in the future after this loan.<br />
<br />
<b>&quot;In This Christmas - Consolidate 70 percent of your unsecured credit card debt in 24 hours!&quot; &quot;Get rid of your credit card balances without bankruptcy -- guaranteed!. <u>We have Helped 4.5 Million US People.</u> <a href="http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/apply-now.php" target="_blank">We Can Help You</a>!&quot;</b><br />
<br />
<br />
In most cases, one has to keep something as collateral against the loan that he takes and later this asset can be used to pay off the debt that his borrower was not able to pay. Thus, debt consolidation and unsecured loan can be the two characteristics of such a loan.  <br />
<br />
Planning for an <a href="http://unsecured.debtconsolidation123.net/" target="_blank">Business Debt Consolidation</a><br />
<br />
When planning for an unsecured  <a href="http://www.debtconsolidation123.net/" target="_blank">credit card debt consolidation services</a>  reason out your decision to purchase it. Many times, it happens that people keep taking up loans and unlimited use of credit cards and incurring other debts, they do not realize how much debt they create for themselves. So carefully reason out the purpose of this loan. No doubt if you can no longer pay off your monthly installments, you can resort to debt consolidation program. This way all your debts will be paid off in an instant and you can start fresh.</div>


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			<title>? about the day I conceived</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/khloesmomma/2481-about-day-i-conceived.html</link>
			<pubDate>Tue, 27 Oct 2009 23:15:05 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>i am due feb 28th can anyone help me figure out when I conceived?</description>
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<div>i am due feb 28th can anyone help me figure out when I conceived?</div>


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			<title>Ten Ways to Express your TTC Rage</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/circlebloom/2474-ten-ways-express-your-ttc-rage.html</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 22 Oct 2009 00:07:01 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Riding the TTC roller-coaster every month can get very exhausting, depressing and very frustrating.  Where do we put all of this energy?   I believe strongly we have to LET IT OUT.

Here are some insightful ways to release the anger:
   1. Pay attention to your thoughts – don’t judge, just listen. When we start to be conscious and aware of our thought patterns, a shift automatically begins to happen.
   2. Talk with trusted friends or family members.  Call it a ***** session.  You may even want to tell your friend to just listen and not talk. 
   3. Keep a journal / blog.  When you start journaling your thoughts, you become more aware of them and therefore more in control.  Have no rules for your journal.  
   4. Conscious breathing. It is said that the easiest way to the present moment – where there really are no problems you can’t deal with – is to start to become consciously aware of your breathing. 
   5. Visualization of the anger and then letting it go. You might want to visualize your anger collecting inside, going round and round and then coming out through your a deep out-breath, and then that anger becoming a helium balloon and just floating away.  
   6. Drawing, sketching, creating something while focusing on the anger.  Take a plain piece of paper, and sketch and color whatever comes to mind when reflecting on your infertility.  Come back to it a few days later to study it and let your intuition guide you inside its secrets.  
   7. Loud music and singing at the top of your lungs.  Shut the door, blast the music and sing along at the top of your lungs.
   8. Guided visualization and deep relaxation.  Repeated, daily use of deep relaxation and guided visualization using the Circle + Bloom program or other programs can be incredibly therapeutic and enlightening.   
   9. Exercise. Get the blood pumping and then allow your anger to come through.  
  10. Join a support group. 
  
Above all, let yourself experience it.  Try not to deny it. It’s healthy and above all know that it’s OK to have these negative emotions.

What are some of the ways that you deal with ups and downs of trying to conceive?</description>
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<div>Riding the TTC roller-coaster every month can get very exhausting, depressing and very frustrating.  Where do we put all of this energy?   I believe strongly we have to LET IT OUT.<br />
<br />
Here are some insightful ways to release the anger:<br />
   1. Pay attention to your thoughts – don’t judge, just listen. When we start to be conscious and aware of our thought patterns, a shift automatically begins to happen.<br />
   2. Talk with trusted friends or family members.  Call it a ***** session.  You may even want to tell your friend to just listen and not talk. <br />
   3. Keep a journal / blog.  When you start journaling your thoughts, you become more aware of them and therefore more in control.  Have no rules for your journal.  <br />
   4. Conscious breathing. It is said that the easiest way to the present moment – where there really are no problems you can’t deal with – is to start to become consciously aware of your breathing. <br />
   5. Visualization of the anger and then letting it go. You might want to visualize your anger collecting inside, going round and round and then coming out through your a deep out-breath, and then that anger becoming a helium balloon and just floating away.  <br />
   6. Drawing, sketching, creating something while focusing on the anger.  Take a plain piece of paper, and sketch and color whatever comes to mind when reflecting on your infertility.  Come back to it a few days later to study it and let your intuition guide you inside its secrets.  <br />
   7. Loud music and singing at the top of your lungs.  Shut the door, blast the music and sing along at the top of your lungs.<br />
   8. Guided visualization and deep relaxation.  Repeated, daily use of deep relaxation and guided visualization using the Circle + Bloom program or other programs can be incredibly therapeutic and enlightening.   <br />
   9. Exercise. Get the blood pumping and then allow your anger to come through.  <br />
  10. Join a support group. <br />
  <br />
Above all, let yourself experience it.  Try not to deny it. It’s healthy and above all know that it’s OK to have these negative emotions.<br />
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What are some of the ways that you deal with ups and downs of trying to conceive?</div>


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			<title>Scoliosis - Muscle degeneration</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/igreenmommy/2465-scoliosis-muscle-degeneration.html</link>
			<pubDate>Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:20:31 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Just wondering if anyone out there is dealing with Scoliosis (curviture of the spine), muscle degeneration cause by scoliosis

Mine was found when I was 13 (just after puberty). I have  S shaped curve in my neck, and S shaped curve in my back, Back is 32 degree and 28 degree (NOT bad enough for surgury nor to qualify for Social security).  

I'm looking for other's to share my experiences with. I feel alone in the world and no one understands what my life is like.  I'm in pain all the time, always have been.  I DO not want Perscription med's because it just masks the problems and I would like to be lucid and aware of my life passing me by.  Most excercises are impossible for me to do to keep my muscles in shape, stretching is the only thing I can do and even it causes my muscles to seize (throwing me to the ground until seizing stops).   The curve in my neck keeps me having Tension headaches on a daily basis.   

My family, friends, aquantences can't "fathom" what I go through, therefore do not understand WHY at a moments notice I can on the ground in pain screaming, or at the least cringing in pain from a quickly onset migraine or a muscle spasm. 

I can't commit to a Job outside my home because I would get fired pretty quickly for I would have to call in sick a lot over the muscle spasms, headaches ect (ending in 3-5 days of bed rest from torn muscles / tendons spasms).  It's very tough in this economy to rely on my husbands job to support us (and our two kids). Even he is not very supportive of my condition.

Anyone out there that can remotely relate to me, please post a reply. I would love to have someone to talk to about this.  Especially now that we just found out that my Daughter (age 7) has Scoliosis now too. It breaks my heart to know that she will be growing up in pain and suffering as I did and do.]]></description>
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<div>Just wondering if anyone out there is dealing with Scoliosis (curviture of the spine), muscle degeneration cause by scoliosis<br />
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Mine was found when I was 13 (just after puberty). I have  S shaped curve in my neck, and S shaped curve in my back, Back is 32 degree and 28 degree (NOT bad enough for surgury nor to qualify for Social security).  <br />
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I'm looking for other's to share my experiences with. I feel alone in the world and no one understands what my life is like.  I'm in pain all the time, always have been.  I DO not want Perscription med's because it just masks the problems and I would like to be lucid and aware of my life passing me by.  Most excercises are impossible for me to do to keep my muscles in shape, stretching is the only thing I can do and even it causes my muscles to seize (throwing me to the ground until seizing stops).   The curve in my neck keeps me having Tension headaches on a daily basis.   <br />
<br />
My family, friends, aquantences can't &quot;fathom&quot; what I go through, therefore do not understand WHY at a moments notice I can on the ground in pain screaming, or at the least cringing in pain from a quickly onset migraine or a muscle spasm. <br />
<br />
I can't commit to a Job outside my home because I would get fired pretty quickly for I would have to call in sick a lot over the muscle spasms, headaches ect (ending in 3-5 days of bed rest from torn muscles / tendons spasms).  It's very tough in this economy to rely on my husbands job to support us (and our two kids). Even he is not very supportive of my condition.<br />
<br />
Anyone out there that can remotely relate to me, please post a reply. I would love to have someone to talk to about this.  Especially now that we just found out that my Daughter (age 7) has Scoliosis now too. It breaks my heart to know that she will be growing up in pain and suffering as I did and do.</div>


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			<title>could I be......</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/mistymae/2461-could-i.html</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 18 Oct 2009 22:09:15 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Could I be....... 

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Okay I don't know if I am in the right place to ask this question but I need to talk to someone....I am 45 years old never been pregnant and just got divorced 6 months ago got involved with a man that is 49 about 2 months ago had sex on the 13th of September and my period was supposed to start on the 26th. Needless to say it did not. Took home test came up neg, had strepp throat and was on antibiotioc, now have major upper resp infection went to doctor he took urine test still neg but he feels if I do not start by Wednesday that he will order blood test and sonogram. Is it just a possiblity that this is my first missed cycle because of my age or is the doctor possibly correct in telling me that the antibiotics and the fact that I have been sick since around the 26th that my neg test are not correct. Any one out there ever hear of something similar?]]></description>
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Okay I don't know if I am in the right place to ask this question but I need to talk to someone....I am 45 years old never been pregnant and just got divorced 6 months ago got involved with a man that is 49 about 2 months ago had sex on the 13th of September and my period was supposed to start on the 26th. Needless to say it did not. Took home test came up neg, had strepp throat and was on antibiotioc, now have major upper resp infection went to doctor he took urine test still neg but he feels if I do not start by Wednesday that he will order blood test and sonogram. Is it just a possiblity that this is my first missed cycle because of my age or is the doctor possibly correct in telling me that the antibiotics and the fact that I have been sick since around the 26th that my neg test are not correct. Any one out there ever hear of something similar?</div>


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			<title>Ivf  help!!</title>
			<link>http://talk.sheknows.com/blogs/ctorres5785/2447-ivf-help.html</link>
			<pubDate>Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:16:05 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Well im scared  i know everything should be fine but i just want  to see how many people went thou this and how did it work for them i know everyone is different i just want to be a little more confortable  about it. I never been a person to take alot of meds   and now that  i have to take   some now and inject my self  im pretty nerves. Me and my  husband been trying for about 4 years to have a baby and   we just find out this year that my husband buddy dont swim :\i dont know the doc term  but  that easy for me to say  hes sprem  is great and the court is great they just not connect ..  so i just want to see how many people are going thou the same or :repost</description>
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<div>Well im scared  i know everything should be fine but i just want  to see how many people went thou this and how did it work for them i know everyone is different i just want to be a little more confortable  about it. I never been a person to take alot of meds   and now that  i have to take   some now and inject my self  im pretty nerves. Me and my  husband been trying for about 4 years to have a baby and   we just find out this year that my husband buddy dont swim :\i dont know the doc term  but  that easy for me to say  hes sprem  is great and the court is great they just not connect ..  so i just want to see how many people are going thou the same or :repost</div>


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			<title>Ovulation bleeding</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 08 Oct 2009 15:52:06 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Im ttc but its hard for me to have sex if im having ovulation bleeding. My question is, does the ovualation bleeding occur when the egg is in the felopian tubes or does bleeding occur when the egg is leaving the ovaries.</description>
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<div>Im ttc but its hard for me to have sex if im having ovulation bleeding. My question is, does the ovualation bleeding occur when the egg is in the felopian tubes or does bleeding occur when the egg is leaving the ovaries.</div>


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			<title>Fat loss expert</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 05 Oct 2009 17:03:27 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I became an expert at losing fat...I wonder if people would be interested in my blog, if I wrote one about getting skinny...or FIT?:banana</description>
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<div>I became an expert at losing fat...I wonder if people would be interested in my blog, if I wrote one about getting skinny...or FIT?:banana</div>


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			<title>Burning Charcoal</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 28 Sep 2009 06:53:51 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I have been feeling unhappy for the last few years, its always in my thoughts...that I'm better off dead.  I'm not trying to escape from anything, I just feel like I would be more at peace when I'm dead.  Or I rather be dead than to be in this marriage that I cant escape just because I'm binded by my marriage vows and that I would hurt a lot of people when I leave this marriage.  Or that I would disappoint a lot of people when I do.  But if I'm dead at least I wouldnt hear any of these.  I guess I was wrong when I said that I'm not trying to escape from something because what I want to do now is to get away from my marriage.  

Talk to your husband you might say, I tried but it always turns up into an argument because he thinks that I'm just hormonal, emotional or just a plain moaner.  He doesnt stop to think and rationalize everything, he automatically defaults that I'm blaming him, I'm not, I just want him to listen.  Or at least make an effort to get out of his comfortable zone to make me happy or just be happy doing things for me.

I heard that charcoal burning is an easy way to claim your own life.  Painless they say.  I've already concocted a plan on how to do it, first, I will drink vodka so I can go to sleep quickly (I get sleepy when I'm drunk) then light up the charcoal maybe in the bathroom because its a smaller room than a bedroom or maybe even the linen cardboard because thats definitely smaller, no chances of smoke coming out.  Put on the Iron Maiden song Dance of Death (its my lullaby song) then just lie down and slowly trance into nothing.  Just thinking about that trance makes me feel peaceful.]]></description>
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<div>I have been feeling unhappy for the last few years, its always in my thoughts...that I'm better off dead.  I'm not trying to escape from anything, I just feel like I would be more at peace when I'm dead.  Or I rather be dead than to be in this marriage that I cant escape just because I'm binded by my marriage vows and that I would hurt a lot of people when I leave this marriage.  Or that I would disappoint a lot of people when I do.  But if I'm dead at least I wouldnt hear any of these.  I guess I was wrong when I said that I'm not trying to escape from something because what I want to do now is to get away from my marriage.  <br />
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Talk to your husband you might say, I tried but it always turns up into an argument because he thinks that I'm just hormonal, emotional or just a plain moaner.  He doesnt stop to think and rationalize everything, he automatically defaults that I'm blaming him, I'm not, I just want him to listen.  Or at least make an effort to get out of his comfortable zone to make me happy or just be happy doing things for me.<br />
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I heard that charcoal burning is an easy way to claim your own life.  Painless they say.  I've already concocted a plan on how to do it, first, I will drink vodka so I can go to sleep quickly (I get sleepy when I'm drunk) then light up the charcoal maybe in the bathroom because its a smaller room than a bedroom or maybe even the linen cardboard because thats definitely smaller, no chances of smoke coming out.  Put on the Iron Maiden song Dance of Death (its my lullaby song) then just lie down and slowly trance into nothing.  Just thinking about that trance makes me feel peaceful.</div>


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