Hi everyone. A long time ago (6-8 months?) I thought I needed a 3-4 week break from posting on the boards. This was about a year into our break from fertility treatments and around the time our first foster placement ended in disaster. And well, I never quite made it back.
Apparently I really needed a BIG break from everything.
But, I've been thinking about all of you and hoping for good outcomes.
For those of you who don't remember me: My DW and I have been TTC since 2003. We started out thinking that we only needed sperm and that everything would be easy. Boy, were we wrong.
Years down the line and I'd never been pregnant despite 3 IVF rounds described as having good quality embryos and my DW had miscarried twice.
We spent a lot of time thinking about what came next. We looked at adoption, but, were scared off by a variety of factors (especially cost). We had always meant to foster after having bio-kids. So, we took a break from TTC and got our foster care licence. We had one disastrous foster placement and now have B-17 living with us. He's definitely a challenge, but, we have a clear set of goals and a clearly defined time window and I believe that we can help.
However, along the way we decided that we needed to do one last IVF round with a double transfer (i.e. my eggs, embryos transferred to both of us). We are currently in the 11 day wait following transfer. We had the best results yet--17 eggs, 13 fertilized, 11 still growing on day 5 and the best quality we'd ever had. We transferred 4 embryos and still had 4 of good enough quality for freezing! We were told by our doctors that we were statistically beyond the point where success was expected, but, we needed to try it.
Anyway, this morning (around 4:30 am because my DW woke up then) we broke down and POS. My DW's was negative, which startled me because we gave her the 2 best embryos. But, mine was positive!!!
That's NEVER happened before.
Now, I have to wait 2 days until I can get a blood test and I'm desperately hopeful. I'm also terrified, because it's never worked for me before and my DW has miscarried early. But, I also want to scream from the rooftops that I might get to be a mom. (I'm almost ready to cry.)
For those who've been struggling...don't lose hope, we might all get there.