grrrrrrrr
my sister pisses me off so badly and i have to bite my tounge or it turns into such a huge blowout.
she called and wanted to know how my dr's appt went and i just explained that next week id be starting my nst, and biophysical profiles, and she just acted like i had never mentioned this to her before and never explained what any of these tests are. she is soooooo forgetful lately and beyond that she is really rather ignorant when it comes to anything to do with motherhood/pregnancy. she has never been married or pregnant.
i guess a lot of my anger stems from the fact that the two women id love to be closest to during this important time in my life, i havent been and cant be. my mom is in the beginning stages of alzheimers (or however u spell it) and lets face it, its been almost 31 yrs since she has given birth, i cant call her for support or even just talk to her and expect her to remember anything. my sister, well, dont get me wrong, i lover her to pieces but we are very very different people and do not communicate well together, she is not what i would call a close friend, although id love it if we could be. both of them would just look at me with a blank stare if i said i was so and so dilated or so and so effaced because they have no freakin clue.
if i tell my sister im having a rough day with the kids and i get a bit snippy with one of them, she gets mad at me, even though she has no freakin clue what its like to be a mother in the first place. i just get sooooooooo gosh, i dont know...... upset over it all.
thanks for reading.
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