oh honey, im so sorry you are feeling this way and i know what u are going through. im almost positive its the start of ppd because i had it with allison and i felt the same way. actually i had it with all of my kids but it was the worst with her. i would literally cry and beg my dh to not go to work after i had her, i could go and on. only three things got me through that dark time, one was zoloft, two was a good friend that i called nonstop to talk me down from the ledge (not literally) and dh.
the most important thing is to talk about this with a close friend (im here if u want to talk ) and your dr. just hang on honey, it gets better, i promise.
luv ya girlie!
p.s. did u get my pm?