Feeling a tad off
I REALLY hate this, and it's aggrivating that I am already feeling like this. I have this feeling I can't shake... I feel empty and alone. I KNOW it's hormones 100%. I just don't recall feeling it to this extent before. Nothing is wrong, but I feel horrible. I feel so sad and by myself. I don't want SO to go to work because I have been missing him horribly and feel out of sorts when he is gone. Anyone who knows us and our relationship KNOWS this is unusual. Me and Jay have a GREAT relationship... but I tend to enjoy my time during the day while he is at work (and never had a problem admitting it heh). Every morning it gets harder and harder to see him walk out that door, and I have no idea why. I feel like there is something wrong between us, but the fact is, I don't think things have been any better than they are right now. We have even been talking about getting married finally in the next month or two. So why am I feeling like this? I told Jay lastnight that I didn't feel right, and he told me he has noticed that I have been a little off the past few days. He then proceeded to wipe my tears away, hugged me and reassured me how much he is in love with me.
But still, I just can't shake this horrible feeling....
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~Angela~
Expecting #5!!
Callie ~ 11
Evann~ 5 and Gavinn ~ 3
Ryann Addison 05-09-2008
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