Just a lil' "woe-is-me" and "I don't know how to manage this for several more weeks (???)" vent...

My SPD (pubic symphysis) pain came on with a gigantic BANG today! It hurt yesterday, but Tylenol and a warm bath last night got me back to bearable by this morning. Well, I was struggling again in church and by lunch time today, it became so painful at a restaurant (DH & kiddos took me out ) that I could barely make it from the restroom to the table where my family was...but I had to as my 5yo DD was with me. I then had to wince my way out and to the van biting my tongue so I didn't scream. I absolutely hate making any kind of scene so was trying to pass it off as nothing, but literally got to the point that walking (esp. every time I took a step w/with my left foot) was beyond excruciating. I lost it once I got there. My DH commented that people obviously thought I was about to have my baby. All I could say at that point was that I'd rather be feeling that right then than the pain I was feeling.

Long story shorter...I had planned to get some things done and ready for baby today. I've been feeling all frantic and emotional about it lately (thanks, hormones), so I was ready to take action. I had shopping to do, was hoping to get our pool for the birth picked up, and do a little cleaning (I know...it's Mother's Day...but my parents are coming tomorrow and things get messy fast with my crew...not to mention "nesting"). Instead, my DH had to help me stagger in and I ended up in bed with a hot rice sock between my legs. ...A wasted day.



Sorry for the long story and whine; it's just been a really rough one for me today...and, really, lately. It's now obvious that I'm going to have to give up my regular exercising (ugh!), which isn't easy for me. I'm sure my low-impact aerobics and toning this morning exacerbated things and that's why my day was ruined. ...But that's a whole other issue/battle for me. I'm just so past the 'cute preggo' stage, am sick of nothing fitting, and feel horrible for being snippy with my kiddos and DH lately. As many of you can probably relate -- kids with unending questions and such + horrible physical pain/exhaustion = cranky mommy. It's still no excuse though.

I apologize for the bummer thread...things can only get better, right? Thanks for listening.

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