Hmmm, this is tough. Maybe it is related to the ppd. What are you taking? I take 75mg Effexor Xr and it's helped me tremendously. Also I still love bfing my 15 month old though I would quit now if she was ready. But I feel like we'll probably self wean. I'm off track. So she's 4 mos old? That is a difficult age. I assume she's become distracted by the world around and probably fusses and pulls off the breast. If that is the case believe me when I say it is just a phase. A very frustrating annoying phase but it will pass. As for the bottle, I think at this age you don't have to worry about nipple confusion but I would think that giving a consistent bottle every day could affect your supply. Maybe not as so many women go back to work and their dc get bottles during the day and still bf at night. If she was 4 weeks old I would say what you're doing is very dangerous but since she's older I'm not sure it's such a problem really. And if it helps you feel better about the bfing that you are still doing then maybe you should keep it up. Formula is not the best thing for a baby, but it's not rat poison either. I feel like any momma milk a baby can get is great! You sound so educated on the benefits of bfing and like you've been really committed thus far. Just take a deep breath and don't be too hard on yourself. If you need a break that's normal and ok. Hugs.

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