Hi ladies,
So I just POAS again........4th time in 3 days.........STILL NEGATIVE! EVIL EVIL STICKS!!!!!!! My beta is tomorrow and I'm a nervous wreck. I'm trying SO hard to stay positive but its VERY hard without even the faintest of a line! I thought for sure all this heartache was behind me with this cycle. I just kept thinking to myself, I transferred 2 the 1st time and got pg (no heartbeat), then 3 the 2nd time and got pg (ectopic) and now this time transferred 4 and I'm HAVING A BABY! I'm putting my foot down and I'm HAVING A BABY! (dont you wish a tempur tantrum really did the trick?) I'm just loosing hope now after not even a hint of a line at 12dpo.
I'm SO petrified of another low beta, and riding that roller coaster of 'are we doubling' for 2 more weeks.......just to have my world ripped out from underneath of me a FOURTH time! And then again, I cant even imagine how devistating a BFN would be!
This 2ww has gotten the best of me ladies, its eating at my soul tonight. I can't even think straight!
PLEASE, Someone, ANYONE.......tell me you got all negatives at home and then a positive beta
