I never said I WASN'T testing . . . I just said I couldn't RELIABLY test!

Yeah, I went nuts. I started out just testing out my booster shots - I wanted to know when the tests turned negative so next IVF, I could be sure when would be "safe" to test. When the tests looked like they were getting darker, I thought I was imagining it. Then I thought it was a cruel trick from the booster. It wasn't until about 16 DPO that it dawned on me that it might actually be real, but then it was lighter again at 17DPO, so then I didn't know what to think! 13 and 14 DPO were the first days I truly expected to see a negative, and I was SOOO afraid to believe it.

I was just afraid of showing the tests to everyone and letting everyone get me excited and believing they were real.

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