SheKnows Message Boards - View Single Post

Constance_13 · #17 (**permalink**) 04-19-2008, 02:37 PM

HI girly....BIG BIG HUGS!!!! I am sorry for the late replay!!! I agree with Shannon - when it’s meant to happen and supposed to be there will be NO STOPPING it and I also believe that as sure as I am sitting here you will have your little miracle in your arms before you know it. I know it feels so over whelming and like its taking so much to achieve this goal but once you are through to the other side you will have found such strength with in your self and your relationship with your DH that there will be NO STOPPING you guys or your family and you will be better for it. When you are in the middle of such darkness and struggle its hard to see the good but its there and you can always talk to us and vent and cry and scream....what ever you need!!! We are all here for you.

I have been in an extremely dark place lately myself as things are just not happening how I "planned" or "imagined" they would and when I was talking to my GF the other day she said something that gave me great strength. We were talking about feeling like I was stuck in the free fall or horribleness and that I had gone over the edge and could no longer see the light at the top of the pit I had falling down. I felt like I was done and had hit my breaking point and just could not do any of it any more and I asked her where does the strength come from? I mean I feel like I have NOTHING left but then it just appears and some how I make it through that dark min or hour or day I am having and I just keep moving forward as best I can and she said "THAT is the definition of strength!!!" That when you feel you have nothing left but you still keep going....that’s true and real strength and its makes us who we are. Some ppl never have to find that inner core but others do and there lives are so much richer for it. Until then I had never though of it that way.

This made me feel a bit better to think of it that way and to try and keep looking for the good. It’s so over whelming and when I feel I am free falling again and there is no hope I ask god to please help and stop the free fall so I can catch my breath. He always comes through in his way. I know you can do this girly!!! I truly wish you all the best and EVERY success....its hard now but it will make the prize so much sweeter. LOVE YOU!!!!