Shannon your words just made my eyes get some BIG O' tears of joy!!
I love you too. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. You are SO right God is in control. I am just having such a hard time dealing right now. I know that it will happen when it is suspose to but I just didn't EVER think it would come down to all of this (remember we didn't even want to do the meds/re). But thank God I did.((he has lead me down his path). I really do try to be positive but after all of this it is just so hard. I feel like I don't know what to do or think about the whole situation. But I will keep my faith and know that God has something VERY SPECIAL waiting for me and my husband. Even my Gma(my mom) told me today who knows after all of this you may start popping them out just like your mom did! (she has four kids!!)
Thank you so much, your words mean so much to me!! I need to just rest and wait up with a better outlook-
Sometimes I just wanna scream it is not fair, but I know that my gift from god awaits me and my husband. I just need a little pick me up...
Dust it off and move forward, no matter how hard it seems to be
Love ya' big ones!!

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Vanessa (25) DH~Matthew (26)