You sound just like me. I am 5'4 and @200 lbs. I have a lot of muscle in there (I've been told I have "man" legs) but I also have a lot of fat!

The last time I was 155 was in Phoenix and I was super active and super poor. I remember there were nights I was eating spoons of peanut butter for dinner. Ahhh, but I loved being on my own. I had done the atkins diet and then started working out and lifting weights again with a friend of mine who was a personal trainer. I need one of those again. He liked to cuss at me and I loved it. He didn't take any crap from me.

I want to be back at that size again- but even at that size I didn't feel like I looked good. *sigh*. I have joined Curves but I haven't been faithful. As soon as I'm done wearing these stupid pads I promise myself I am going to get in the gym!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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