Thanks girls, I'm feeling ok. I'm still kind of in shock. It just doesn't seem real. There isn't going to be a service or anything. His wishes were to be cremated & that's it. He never really did like crowds, & he went out happy he was gambling & eating at the casino. I feel so bad for my grandma. She was saying how lonely she's going to be. How much she'll miss him, & that she can't go back to that house. I wasn't able to be at the hospital. They were in Shreveport & I'm in Miss. The hardest part was trying to comfort my aunt. She is 6 months older then me. I just had no idea what to say so I cried with her. I know it sounds weird but after talking about life & death something inside me just kinda woke up & said ttc & have that baby before it's to late!

Tkeys, I agree that we have all been brought together for some reason. I believe everything happens for a reason. I know we will all be grads sooner or later. Every person I know that had problems ttc did eventually get pg. Just recently my cousin got pg. The doctors even told her from a medical stand point she should've never have been able to pg. They tried for 8 years & then got a natural ! I guess stories like that make me feel better. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you this cycle! As far as satisfying my need to be a mom right now....she's in my siggy with a stick in her mouth!

Thanks for the compliments on my siggy! I just changed it & added mt ttc back to it! That's one of the advantages of doing the graphics. I can change it up anytime I want!

Robswife, Sorry I don't know your name yet. I'm looking forward to getting to know you. Thank you for the well wishes!

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