is over! So, I said yesterday I was done ttc. I have been a ttc break for a few weeks. Then something really sad happened tonight...my grandpa passed away. I couldn't believe it. I think I'm still in shock. I got a call around 7pm that he was in Shreveport & they thought he was having a heart attack. My grandma called an ambulance & he died of a massive heart attack. He had a stroke that immediately lead to the heart attack. After crying & speaking with my family I told dh I want to start trying again. I just realized life is to short. I don't want to let the opportunity to be a mom just slip by. For the last couple of months I have just been so upset. I thought I'd be pg by now. I'm still mad & hurt by my m/c. I finally felt it tonight that life is to short to go on feeling sorry for myself. I told dh tonight I don't want to be a mom. I need to be a mom! I'm finally ready to let go of the "what if" & focus on the "what will be". I think it made dh happy, because he just smiled & said "double time!" I really believe you have to let go of the past & embrace the future. I'm finally ready to do that! I'll be charting again starting tomorrow morning. I'm so committed to the idea we will get pg I even told my brother tonight that we're trying to have a baby! He was actually happy for me! I'm glad to be back (the real me that's happy & optimistic)! I missed you girls!

Now lets see some s!!!!!

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