Also, I fell alseep on the table. I remeber four things. I remeber them asking if I can feel them messing with my belly. To see if I could feel pain. I remeber them tugging on my belly with the forspes(sp). I remeber hearing Ben crying and them cleaning him off and handing him to my dh. And them when there were putting my staples in me. But thats all. I was soo darn tired it wasn't fun. I was in labor from 10 am on March 6th to 3:35am (When Ben was born) on March, 7th. I know how you feel. But nothing is your fault. You feelings well change I promish you. I felt sooo bad about it i cryed for at least two or three weeks after he was born. See I was at a +1, you have to get up to a +4 and the baby is born. But my son's head got turn at some time during labor, and he was trying to come out sideways. I'm glad bfing is going great. Ben and I never could get the hang of it. So now he is ff. But good luck, and best wishes!!!

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