We are in the midst of our first IVF, primarily because of MFI. I have a terrible fear of needles, so this process hasn't been easy on me. I'm most worried about the IM injection I need to do to trigger in about 5 or 6 days, and last night I was obsessively researching giving an IM injection on the web. A woman on the IVF board suggested searching for video on youtube, and it was really helpful. I watched maybe 3 or 4 videos, and it made me feel better. While I was doing this, DH snapped at me about how he is sick of me obsessing over a "stupid" shot and I'm making him crazy watching "all those videos." I lost it . . . I blew up at him, yelling that he isn't the one stuck jabbing himself with hundreds of needles, and if I want to obsess, or learn how to give myself yet another shot, then he should leave me alone to do what I need to do. Next thing I know, I want to lash into him and tell him that it was all his fault I was stuck doing this anyway, since we were only doing IVF because of his problem and it is unfair that he has the problem and I'm getting jabbed with all the needles. Luckily, I bit that part back, but I'm still stewing over it today.

So, I guess I'm asking how you all handle that? It isn't that I blame DH exactly, but I'm definitely scared and tense, and there must be a little part of me thinking "it is his fault I am going through this" or "why can't he take all the needle jabs." I'm feeling terrible that I'm so angry at him about this . . . any insight you can give would be welcome!

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