Hi,

I am brand new to the group and am so relieved to find so many wonderful women going through the same thing!! I have been searching for some kind of discussion - support group online.

I am 37yrs old and have always wanted to have children. I have been waiting for the "perfect" relationship to come along and feel like I have run out of time...

This is my second month of trying to get pregnant.

Last month I picked up a vial from a sperm bank and defrosted it at home. That was agonizing. The waiting was the longest period of my life.

This month - my friends husband offered to be a live donor and in the last week I have insemminated every other day - tomorrow is my last donation for this cycle. ( For a total of 5 insemminations).

I am emotionally all over the map and today can't seem to stop crying.

I have been dating someone for 7 months and it has been rocky. she is somewhat supportive - but I feel she is resentful because we are not doing this "together".

I just feel so sad when I should be excited and hopeful that this might actually work - what is wrong with me???