I had been fighting mine for years knowing it was over. I guess mine was finding out he was telling people he wanted a divorce and I had had it. Then his dad told me I should be doing even more to please him pretty much and that was the final straw I think. I had been killing myself to make him happy and he never was.

We had been talking about how to work things out but I just couldn't see how we would, both wanting different things from life. Its like he was in a totally different book then I was. Its one thing to like be in the same book but maybe in different chapters but not totally different books. This was the analogy I used to make my point to him.

I also knew I was in a position to be able to take care of myself totally since I had been paying all the bills so that helped me make my decision also. Before I was always to scared that I couldn't provide totally for myself cause we had been together since highschool.

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Ranee ~ Mommy to
Hunter Paul