Hi.

I finally decided to try out one of these message boards. My husband and I have been trying for the past 11 months without success. For the past three we have used Clomid (made me so mean and emotional) and IUI's. I really thought that this last one was going to work as I had lots of great eggs (noted in the ultrasound), husbands #'s are great and everything seemed just right. Unfortunately, I started my period today. I am trying to stay positive but it is so hard. I am starting on the pill tomorrow for 21 days to be followed with 10 days of Lupron, then the gonadatropin injections, HCG trigger, progesterone etc etc (I know you ladies know the story). This will be our first injection followed by IUI cycle. Did I mention that I have had the HSG test (last month) and all the other requisite tests, my husband too and everything is GREAT. I am36 and Steve (husband is 38).

It is getting really hard to keep the faith. It seems as if everywhere I turn all my g-friends are getting pregnant just by blinking. I am trying to be gracious and supportive but honestly on the inside it is really hard.

I am having a super hard time with going on the pill for 21 days. Talk about no hope! I am trying to frame it in my head as the prep for a great cycle, but it is just hard.

I want to be a mom so badly. It just seems like it is never going to happen. On a happier note, my 43 year old sister is seven months pregnant with a healthy baby boy after two rounds of IVF I KNOW everything she went through to get to this point so I am SO, SO happy for her.

Anyways, thanks for reading. I am hopeful that by meeting some people here I might not feel so alone in this desperately trying part of my life.

Hope to hear from you

Kim