I wish I could give you a great big hug.. I'm so sorry for your loss

God is hearing your prayers. He really is! But He has a plan for you, that he hasn't shared with you yet. When it is time, he will show you. Keep praying, try to stay patient, and focus on getting you grounded.

Do you attend church? Could you go talk to one of the pastors for guidance?

ps I know how things in your eyes look like they aren't getting any better because you don't have what you WANT. But I'm sure you have everything that you need.

pps Please seek help if you ever think that you will harm yourself. Just think that if you do, you will never get that baby that you long for.

I'll say a few prayers for you that you find the peace you are looking for and that God shares his plan with you sooner then later!

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