I'm sorry for your loss. I think it is okay to be angry at God we wouldn't be human if we didn't because so many things like this are uncontrollable and out of our power which leaves us feeling vulnerable and weak. My sister had an ectopic pregnancy that had to be removed and I remember how devastated she was and how unfair it seemed that she was so wanting this baby. Time is the only thing that heals that makes a loss not so sharp or hard to bare. God never promised us a life without tribulations or heartache but I think He is there to comfort us in times of need.

Six years ago I lost my grandmother and I was devestated. She was diagnosed with stage four cancer and things went down hill quickly. We were so close and it was so hard to watch her suffer and I felt like part of me was dying along side her. I felt so empty inside and I was so angry at God and so felt like there was no point to anything. All the money in the world couldn't save her and no matter how much I prayed it didn't make a difference. There was no miracle and if anyone deserved one in life she did. Time has eased the severity of pain and ultimately I let go of the anger I had because it didn't get me anywhere. I'm not saying it doesn't still hurt that I still feel the loss but at some point I had to move on and not let it rule my life.

Grieve be angry... go through the grieving process and in time you will move on.

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